June 19, 2003

brand new shoes + permenant marker = Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck!!

Zoe is here, yet again, redecorating my office. I want to stay and write a bit, but I think she's going to tear it up big time. She's already ruined her new shoes with a black permenant marker.

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Dr. Egypt called yesterday. Totally freaked me out. I was feeling sorry for myself yet again (yeah, I suck...but you already know that), so his timing couldn't be more perfect. I felt like such a dork I was so happy. It's agonizing not knowing when we will be able to see each other again, especially since we are both drawn to each other so strongly.

I was telling him about Zoe's new school. I signed her up yesterday. She was a bit shy at first, but then was excited about the toys and the computer (there are 2 brand new ones in her classroom).

He said that he thought I was doing the right thing. She is at the age where she needs more discipline and structure, or she is going to run me over.

[aside]
ok, mullaney, I just noticed the "similar threads" list. My journal is similar to:

1. SUBMIT TO THE HEAD ... yes, you all must submit to me. As you are hostages here, you must give in and do my evil bidding.

2. MAN ARRESTED WITH SEVERED HEAD SAYS HE WAS PROVOKED... see this is what will happen if you all don't submit to me!!! Single mother arrested with multiple severed heads... says she was driven to it by sleep deprevation.

[aside over]

So I was talking about this and that with him and mentioned that I saw this cute little house next door to Zoe's best friend. I was trying to figure out how to buy it (not in this lifetime), and he said that he would look into buying it, and leasing it to me.

Um, not just yeah, but HELL YEAH.

I'm sure this won't happen, but wow... that would be cool. It's twice as big as my apartment and it has huge bedrooms. *yippee* Zoe would get her own room, and he would have a place to stay when he came to town . He's got some extra money to invest, but I'm not holding my breath (but wow, that would be hella cool!)

I told him I'd also give him some special perks as my landlord.

He said he started work and it is looking grim. He says he has no idea what his schedule would be, but he doesn't think he'll get any days off. He said I'd have to come up there. Considering I'm -17 on my vacation time, it may be a while. I'm trying not to think about it. I totally love that dude. I'm trying not to, but dammit, I do. It really sucks.

Well, it's almost 6:45pm. I'm starved, Zoe has torn the hell out of my office. All the caps are off my pens. She pulled out nearly half of my tape, and she is terrorizing the guy that works next to me (he thinks it's pretty fun though), and there are paper and engineering figures all over the place.

Also, we have to go home and dry sheets. Zoe slept more last night than she has her entire life. I'm sure she is bordering getting sick right now because she slept 14 hours.

I took her to her new school at 5:30 and she fell asleep in the car on the way home. I plunked her down on her sleeping bag in the living room, sure that she'd wake up in 30 minutes or so. Two hours later, she cried out for me, and I changed her into a pull-up and put her into bed. She barely even moved. At 4:30 I woke up thinking something was wrong. My pajamas were soaked as were the sheets ... nice... the pull-up failed us.

I changed us both and she slept until nearly 8am. It was kind of creepy. The most she's ever slept before was like 10 hours.

ok, my friends (and hostages ) night for now!

I'm now being terrorized! Attack of the three year old!!

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