Another too too short of a weekend. I'm exhausted from it.
I am taking this weekend off. I can't babysit. I love it, I love those 2 kids, but I feel like I never have a day off.
I cleaned, shopped, cooked, did laundry all day Saturday and you'd never even know it. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. (multiple uses of the F bomb). I am going to get a housekeeper. That's all there is to it.
I watched Sis #1's kids from 8:30am - 5:00pm, Sunday. They are so adorable. I have baby fever, but am so glad that my sister's keep having kids because I don't want another one full time. It's nice to be able to give them back.
I did make $100. That makes for an extra $600 this month. I still am broke. Why, because I've been buying... sheesh, I don't know what. I think I'm going to go back to my old ways of taking my babysitting money and depositing it into my savings accoung AND NOT TOUCHING IT.
I would be so excited to have that extra $600 right now. Oh wait, I did pay over $100 in bills, bought Zoe a few summer shirts, and bought groceries, so I don't feel so bad.
Well maybe I will babysit just a little bit. I do have the 4th off, so that's an extra day. I'm not going to skip church again though. That's been making me feel really bad. I was starting to enjoy going again, and there are so many cool people.
Last week I went on a reunion of my church retreat. It was a potluck dinner. I brought pizza. Everyone had home cooked stuff. I'm like, "Welcome to my world."
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Zoe's behavior has improved a bit. She's not saying such mean things to me and hasn't really had any bad tantrums this past week. I'm sure it has to do with the school.
She actually remembers what they did in school that day and talks about their field trips. It's cute. I'm excited.
And she's sleeping more. She's not as grouchy/starved when I pick her up. She's tired, but still pretty sweet.
Pray, y'all, for me. I'm hoping it stays this way. I do not need any added stress.
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I suck and I'm still sick. I have the worst headache right now. This totally bites.
Um, my blood sugar levels are not going down. I've cut out all of the crap in my diet for four days now and my fasting sugar level was 269. Shit! I don't want to have to get an insulin pump. The goal is to get off insulin all together and lose some weight.
I
Must
Work
Out!!
this is key!
Maybe I can sneak going to the gym in tonight. My Sis #2 is picking up Zoe, and her hubs is grilling some chicken I brought over.
I want to get these levels under control. I have to go back to that asshole doctor on the 2nd and don't want to hear another ration of shit.
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Dr. Egypt called Saturday. Damn, he is missing me. I am sooooo missing him. He sounded really sad. He said he was going to check hotwire and get me a ticket. I said book it. I'd find a way to make it work out. Whatever. I need to see him. I feel so tense since he left.
I think that's what happens to you when you never have any fun.
I KNOW for a fact that stress makes your blood sugar go up.
I really want to go see him. I need something to look forward to.
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Burns. Minou. Stay out of the woods. Protect your buttholes.
that is too too damn funny.
Y'all all please write. Update those journals please. I have 4 hours to kill and I need some distracting.