Ok, he called again this morning. Just got off call from work and was thinking about me.
He wants me to start looking for a job in Pennsylvania. I actually would move, but it would only be if there was an offer of more security. I don't know about the M word, but if I moved there I would lose having my entire family near me. So if I left, it would have to be very serious. I don't know if this is what he had in mind. I highly doubt it.
He is trying to get a weekend off in August. I repeated my request that if he booked the ticket, I would make it happen. He said to email him my exact name as it appears on my ID. Says some prayers. I need some fun.
I wrote him a fairly serious , albeit sweet, email. I told him exactly (almost) what I've been telling y'all. Leaving out the parts about how desperately I miss him.
Mostly it was about how I miss his friendship, and how much he means to me. How meeting him had a profound effect on my life. What I mean is that after my ex husband was such a dick to me, I thought I'd only be a mom and an employee. My life had no fun in it (kind of like how it is now). He changed all that. We really used to have a wonderful time together. I know he misses it and so do I.
But I wanted him to know that we deserved to have fun together.
It's the same thing as Aimeethepoet's newfound love. When you date someone who is a total dick, it drains you of any part of who you really are. The horrible relationship sucks the life out of you. And when you find that new lovely someone, it is like you have earned it. It is totally rewarding and you become the person you were, and you totally appreciate the new person.
It was a lovely email. I know he will like it. It sucks that I sometimes doubt him. The more I talk to him, the more I know that he is miserable without me, and I should have more faith in our relationship.
I can't wait to see him. I might have to jump him in the airport.
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Hurricane Claudette... yikes. It's tearing up Texas coasts. We might not be able to go to the beach this weekend. They are totally flooded out today. Another time perhaps.
Zoe woke up with a high fever. 103 - Too high for school. After about 11am though she snapped right up. Tore up the house. She's fine now, but that's a scary thing to wake up to. I sure love these unpaid days off. Total suck.
I'm off to cook dinner. I'm such a slave to domesticity.