mope, mope, mope, mope, mope
What a terribly sad day. I haven't read up on my favorite journals, so I may have to address them all later.
Right now I'm too caught up in my mopiness.
It's been a good and bad weekend. I hate that it's over and that I'm off to work too soon.
Zoe and I went to the beach yesterday. It was wonderful. I still want to go back and spend the night. Too much to do, and not enough time.
She was adorable and had the best time. Wearing her little hula bathing suit and her swim shoes. She and I were digging holes and filling up her bucket. We went in the water, and Zoe would have gone in further if I had let her. She jumped the waves and laid down. It was so innocent and cute.
I got a pretty bad sunburn on the back of my neck and weird spots on my calves. Very random. Now I remember why I hate the sun.
I wish we could do more things like that. I miss her. I miss not being in a hurry all the time. Hanging out and having fun. Not doing laundry, cleaning cooking.
We spent the night at Sis #1s house Saturday. I slept like total crap because we were on her oversized couch, but it wasn't big enough for Zoe and me. Babysat the under 3 crowd. My 9 month old neice is adorable. The kids were good.
We went to the circus this morning. It wasn't as good as the one that was here last year. It was goofy and had a "Everyone get crazy" theme. That was totally strange. Zoe thought it was cool, but I was disappointed because the one last year was excellent.
Then later on I got a message that has totally ruined my day.
It sounds like not a big deal, but to me, it's horrible.
My daughter's new daycare has closed - effective immediately. No notice. They just didn't have enough money to keep it open. I'm totally bummed and don't know what Im going to do.
I don't know if I want her to go back to her old school. My ex husband never paid for the last week of daycare at her old school. (ASSHOLE!!) We still owe them $130. I wasn't thrilled with that school, and that's why we moved her in the first place.
She had been doing so well in her new school. She looked forward to going there, and was doing great. Her behavior was getting better, and she wasn't coming home filthy and beat up every day. They made me pay $80 registration fee too. She's only been going there for not even a month. HELL!
I think I'll have to send her back to the old school at least until I find something else for her. I hate to think of sending her somewhere new. That would make 4 schools in 3 years. But I don't know if her old school was good for her. She wasn't doing any curriculum, she was getting beat up, she usually came home exhausted and filthy (why can't you wash someone's hands - jeez).
Her best friend's mother doesn't want to send her to the old school. She's going to look for something else. Zoe is going to be so upset without her best friend.
I have no idea how to break this to her. I also don't have any time off available from work to deal with this shit or to look for another daycare. It's horrible.
I actually was crying. Zoe means everything to me, and I just want what's going to be best for her.
Something good will come of this, but it's too soon to know what?
Fuck. My life is fucking me right now. I just love stress.
thanks. assholes. no notice. fuck!