Ok, so I still have a job. Yippee. I'm thankful. I really am. I surely couldn't handle losing my job and my man at the same time. I was told by Mr. Fake Smiler (my new boss) that I will have a job through like 2010. I don't know if I can ever or will ever trust him or what he says.
But I'm losing someone who is more important to me than my man. My assistant editor "Lara" is getting canned in 3-4 weeks. They are trying to find her some other work, but it won't be the same. She is one of the few reasons I enjoy working here.
She's my inside joke girl. She's the Queen of Snark, and I love her like my own sisters. She's been through the whole Dr. E thing with me and has cheered and consoled me. I've seen her happy and sad, but it's awful when she's not here, even for one day.
She's my support and I don't want to work here if she's not here. But I have to. I will work, but I will hate it.
They are cutting our staff in half within the month. Our client is losing it's shirt, so they requested that we consolidate our program. My boss and my favorite project manager are going over to our corporate office.
We still have the same amount of work.
It is a sucky day here. This is the start of many sucky days here.
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Zoe didn't want to go to school this morning. She started freaking out when she saw we were going to the "new" school. She said it's too hard and she wants to go to her old school.
She was very clingy. I took her to the playground down the alley. (the school is in a strip mall, and the playground is down this closed off alley). She gave me the requisite 8,000 hugs and then a kiss. She said goodbye. I was really late. I got all the way back to the school door and turned around to see Zoe hauling ass towards me with a teacher in pursuit. She said she needed one more "Big one hug."
It broke my heart to see her. I think she's consoling me.
I ran into her new teacher. I left her a note about helping Zoe adjust to her new school. She said Zoe is fine. That she follows instructions and she is a total social butterfly. She said she will be just fine. I told her how every morning and night are horrible for us. That she says she doesn't want to go to school. She thinks that Zoe probably just does it in front of me.
Now I know she's reflecting me. My mood is affecting her.
Thanks sugar, dano, and chelle for your sweet notes. This is why I love this place.
I'm deb_u, the girl who can bounce back.
Deb, the Debster ... bear with me y'all as I can snap back. This moping won't last long.
It's not in me.