I spent nearly my whole day working on real work today. The other part of my day was spent creating a birthday poster for our big boss.
He's one of the nicest men that I have ever met. I don't know him all that well, but I couldn't get too enthusiastic for creating that poster for some reason.
I wanted to say "Happy Birthday. Glad You Are Keeping Me On Staff, but Fuck You for Firing Lara."
I don't think that would have gone over so well.
It's very hard here because the ones that are either being relocated or fired are 1. glad they won't be around because it's going to be so boring/sucky and 2. giving those of us who will still be here guilt trips or lots of shit because we are stuck here.
Lara was so sweet though. She knows how bad I feel, and she's not being mean. I hope she knows I would quit if I could, but I really need the paycheck. I have no savings left any more and I spend money like crazy.
I wish I could find her a job somewhere, but the economy is bad. I'm going to call all the temp agencies that used to beg for my business and am going to help her with her resume.
I hope though that she takes a trip. She had talked about going to London. She's such a wonderful person. I've never seen her as the type to be tied to an office job. She's cool and smart and really pretty. I could see her working in NYC or doing something cool and creative. Possibly even owning her own business.
I can't stand to think of what it is going to be like here without her.
I'm not as mopey, but this is still very lame.
P.S. I forgot to tell you all... we are having a Picnic at Work tomorrow. It was scheduled long before all this layoff shit, but it's still like wayyyy inappropriate given everyone's moods. I just don't want to fucking go. Not at all.
that's it. Get back to what you were doing now.