Zoe went back to school today. No fever yesterday, but she still feels pretty shitty. They had a fieldtrip today. I cried my head off driving in. I'm too tired to be here, but I needed to show my face. I don't even have any work to do today. I did it all in like 15 minutes.
And for this my daughter had to go to school when she wasn't feeling well. How unnatural is it to be a working mom? It is the worst. I fucking hate this. But it "pays the bills." Yeah, whatever. I'm still fucking broke always.
I had to take her to the doctor again. Wednesday night she was like the exorcist. She woke up screaming and crying and saying her belly hurt. Most likely from hardly eating anything all week. Her fever at 3am was 103.9. Under her arm, so add a degree.
I called her pediatrician at 4am and he said to take her in Thursday. It took me two hours to get her back to sleep. The doctor took blood & said her ears look better, but her white blood count wasn't high or anything. Just a virus or maybe the flu. Whatever. Between Monday's visit and Thursdays, she lost 3.5 pounds. Great. Poor little thing.
I spent $100 on all the drugs, doctor visits, etc. I'm going to bounce a check one way or another.
I came back to work today. They are all assholes. I feel like shit. I'm exhausted. I can barely keep my eyes open. I swear they will fire me one day. The good news is that I found out we really get 40 hours of sick leave vs. 20. So I got to use 18.5 hours - which is what I had left.
Zoe's dad is going to "loan" me some money. I have to write him a check that he can cash on my payday this Thursday. Even though he fucking owes me like $2-300 bucks. fucker.
I'm tired. I wish I could nap.
Adios.