A two exclamation Blah day!!
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Things I still know very well:
1. I miss Zoe every minute of every day. She likes chocolate rice crispies.
2. Lara is my best good friend. Only she will ever truly know why. I could never get to the root of this with you. You wouldn't understand.
3. I wish it were colder. October and it's nearing 90. Folks, trust me, this is more depressing than cold.
4. I am not over Dr. E. I miss his dumb ass every day. I miss him more than even I know. It sneaks up on me in the worst way. It's like he's dead and I didn't even get to say goodbye. I bet he doesn't know how his absence makes me so entirely sad.
5. He does not miss me every day. He may not even ever miss me.
6. I still suck. There are too many reasons to list why exactly.
7. I am secretly shy. You'd never know this from seeing my writing or talking to me over the internet, but I am and it makes me feel like a dumb asshole.
8. I openly covet my sister's lives. They may or may not know this. I'm sure you all know this.
9. No matter how much you try to convince me, I still do not see the appeal of anal sex. I don't even want to try it (again, you fucker, ever ever again)
10. I miss Austin. I miss my mom and miss my dad. I miss hanging out with my sisters when we don't have our kids. I miss my ex boyfriend from college. I miss live music. I miss shopping and having money to spend. I am in the missing mode.
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New doctor details:
(and how I find them, I have no idea)
Foreign
Italian/Spanish
Surgeon
Gynocologist (equally intrigued and repulsed)
He shall heretofore be know as Dr. Vagina (thanks benor)
Tall
Smokes a little a lot I don't know yet
Funny
Talks about sex too much at first
Carries a torch for his first true love who died tragically and drove him to go into gynocological surgery
Good looking in a weird way
Met him for lunch today
Didn't talk about sex hardly at all and this made me relieved
He wasn't as weird as I thought he would be. Still reserving judgement
Made him go dutch (I'm an asshole. Should have made him pay)
Made Lara go with me. One of the reasons why she is the best
I acted and looked like a dorkfus. Was wearing hideous, yet comfortable shoes
Realized I'm still stuck on Dr. E in the most fucked up way. I want him out of my head
Realized that I want Dr. E back here
You know this
You know more about me than me
Posted by debutaunt at October 28, 2003 03:52 PM | TrackBack