Dr. E didn't call on Sunday.
But who was I trying to fool? We all knew he wouldn't.
I don't feel like writing. I feel like sleeping. I'm lonely today.
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Zoe and I had a wonderful weekend. It was too too busy.
Friday
Worked like a dog & then rushed over to Sis #1s to make mashed potatoes for supper club. It was fun and the food was great. Again I wished I had a date. Now it makes me miss Dr. E more because they always ask about him (as he was my one and only date). Also, the couples kind of mug on eachother, so it makes me feel like a 3rd wheel.
Got home late. About 1am. We slept in a little on Sat, so that was nice. (although I woke up with the worst leg cramp - probably caused by dehydration / alcohol I consumed - yum - cranberry & vodka)
Saturday
Went to the park with a guy I met online. He brought his six year old daughter. Zoe was so excited before we met them.
Where's the girl with the red hair?
Where's Katy?
Can I sit next to Katy?
Can Katy ride with me?
I want to see Katy
I want to see Katy
I want to see Katy, Mom-eeeeeeeeee
Where's Katy?
Mommy, I want to see Katy.
Will Katy push me on the swings?
Mom, where is Katy?
On and on it went. When we actually met up at Taco Cabana, Zoe buried her face into my leg and would barely look at them. Once Katy shared her doll and coloring book, she was Zoe's new best friend.
[aside]
I interrupted Zoe in the car when she was talking.
"Mom," she says in her most pouty voice "I'm talking to you. DUH! (said like du - uh)
Three going on thirteen.
[aside over]
The guy was really cool although I don't think he liked me (you know like liked me) because I think he freaked out that I was so tall (I had on 1" sandals and he's 6'0, so we were nearly the same height). Give the guy a haircut & he's way way cute. (he did warn me that he's not sure what he wanted to do with his hair, so I wasn't worried about that). I'd like to see him again, even if it is only to let our kids play. Mainly because he seemed very balanced and wanted nothing to do with my backdoor .
Then Zoe and I went to go babysit at Sis #1s. I also had Sis #2 bring her two kids over because she watched Zoe for me during supper club. Five kids under the age of six. It was exhausting, but those kids are so beautiful.
Smelling my 1 year old neice's head while rocking her made it worth it. She is sooo adorable. Those are the moments that break your heart. You want them to last forever.
Sis #1 also is entering a contest to be the Ultimate Texans fan. She basically dressed up as a Texans version of Wonder Woman - go go boots and all. She looked hilarious. I hope she makes it through the process cause then they post it on the internet for people to vote on.
Sunday
Slept in a little because I babysat so late. Woke up and took Zoe to see Elf. It's a cute movie. Zoe really liked it.
We then went to the mall to buy Zoe's winter coat. I got her a shearling coat, a brightly colored scarf and matching gloves. She looks so cute, she could model for Gap. We shopped a bit, sprayed on lots of perfume (she loves that part) and I let her go on this indoor playground/castle thing. She also rode the new 2 story merry go round.
Then grocery shopping, dinner and laundry. I didn't even get to sit down to eat until 8pm. Hectic, but we had a sweet time.
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I'm not going to go there with Butt Boy. I've decided that I'm just not comfortable with that and that he's enjoying teasing me too much.
I also sent Jailbait an email for being such an asshole. I'm tired of letting losers make me feel bad about myself. Fuck him. And no, I'm not going to explain.
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Headed back to the gym tomorrow. Going to meet Soccerboy for a workout. Hope that I can keep it up & and I also hope that he understands that I'm way out of shape & need to take it a bit slow.
Right now, I just wish I could sleep for a few days. I'm feeling run down.
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The Thanksgiving-themed supper club made me think. I encourage all of you to participate.
Things I am thankful for:
My Zoe. She's still my heart and my light. She makes me see the world in a different way. She reminds me why life is still sweet and innocent. She also makes me want to protect her from bad things, but I know I never can. I can't imagine my world without her in it. She's been super affectionate lately. She says "I love you momma" in her sleep too. Now we watch Trading Spaces together. She is the coolest kid.
My family - my parents, 3 sisters and 3 brothers and all their spouses, and all their chil-ren. I can't believe I lucked out enough to have them. I'm so glad that my 2 sisters live here too.
Lara - she's my backbone. She's hilarious and lends an ear when I need one. She also kicks my butt when it needs kicking. I don't want her to leave.
My job - I'm grateful to have a paycheck. I'm also still surprised to have one.
My car - it's a piece, but it gets me where I need to go.
My health - it's sucky, but it could be much much worse.
The IRC - my sounding board. They also keep me laughing when I need a laugh, and my off-topic-ers inspire me. (wow, Oldlady, that last broken-faced one spooked me). I'm glad you all are here for me during my lonely days and nights. I love you and you make me feel less lonely, in the internet-addicted-losery kind of way that I am.
Ok, better get back to work before they find out how bad I suck.