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I am so creepy, I creep even myself

Zoe told me to throw away Baby Jack's cage, but that we had to wrap him up in a little blankie and keep him on top of the television because he would soon wake up. She was really believing that.

So I had to be stealth. (and gross)

When she fell asleep, I took the entire cage, with the stiff hamster, and went and tossed it into the dumpster.

"God keep you little Baby Jack."

It was the creepiest thing I have ever done. It was quiet and dark and the cage broke when I threw it in. (as there was no easy way to place it in there).

I would have rather had a little funeral, but I live in an apartment and didn't want to bury it anywhere where it could be dug up. (not to mention having to touch a dead hamster - icky dance!)

We also have wild animals around (skunks, snakes, wolves and raccoons), so I didn't want any of them to get him either. Best that the landfill be the last resting place of Baby Jack.

Zoe didn't notice that the cage was missing. I put a bunch of crosses where it was. I'm going to tell her God took Baby Jack to hamster heaven.

But I'm still kinda pukey about the whole thing.

I could never be an outdoorswoman like my friend Bambooki. Although she makes living in West Virginia sound so awesome. She's awesome.

Ok. Work today. I'm still half asleep though. Shit.

Big hugs and much love go out to SugarSnit too. I love you my dear. Keep remembering to be good to yourself. It will bring you peace. Take care and do nice things today.

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On my no-Zoe Friday night off, I stayed in bed. I wasn't in the mood for company (even though I got a few offers), and still wasn't feeling well, so I rented a bunch of movies.

Kill Bill (kinda cool)
Win a Date With Tad Hamilton (gay, but I liked it - the dude that plays Tad is fucking HOT)
Matchstick Men (I liked it more than I thought)
Pieces of April (I was impressed with Katie Holmes. I liked this one)
Under the Tuscan Sun (Didn't like this one as much as I wanted to)

I also went to go see Mean Girls (over hyped. I wish I had seen it before people said how great it was)

It was an all around Blockbuster weekend for me. I'm so lame.

Question:

Kind of based on Mean Girls. Just because you are a woman, why should I have any kind of bonding experience or be nice(er) to you? We should be sistagirlfriends because you have a pussy?

I am nice to all people regardless of what you look like, race, gender, etc.

But if you do something shitty or are a dick, regardless of what you look like, race, gender, etc., I'm going to think you are a cunt.

I asked someone this weekend (he's Black)... Are you or should you be nicer to Black people simply because they share your skin color? Even when they act like fucking idiots?

Why on earth should I like women simply because we share the same sex organs? Not all of us experience life the same. We may share some common experiences, but my life is very different than the female CEO who has a nanny. Or I may have more in common with a working man than I do a stay home mom.

So don't think I'm pro-pussy simply cause you got one. You still can be a bigger dick than most men, so honey, I don't owe you SHIT just because we share the same plumbing.

I'm such a douche.

Posted by debutaunt at May 10, 2004 10:15 AM | TrackBack