So what do you do when your friends hate your boyfriend?
Like how much shit or what kind of shit does he have to do to get in the doghouse with your friends? Or out of the doghouse? How far is too far? (For me abuse is too far - verbal or physical.)
Unfortunately it seems your friends only hear the bad shit about the guy. Or they hear your troubles when you break up.
But they don't ever hear about when the guy is making you feel beautiful. Or the kind and sweet and funny/quirky things he does. You know, when he isn't being a fucking dickhead.
And then when you breakup and they talk shit about him and commiserate with you, but you never forget what they said. Stuff like, "Yeah, I never did trust him and don't think I ever can." or "he's a sexist asshole." or "I'd never let any dude pull that shit on me."
Once it's out there, you can't take it back. A lesson I have learned and is one of the very few things I do regret in my life now. And fuck. Fuck Fuck Fuck about that.
Anyway, just has been something I've been thinking about lately.
And yeah, I still miss that Goddamn Dr. E. I miss his ass every single day. In a way no one but me can understand.
Because he was kind and did make me feel beautiful and special. When he wasn't being distant and ... oh you all know all the other crap.
Cause you are my secret girlfriends, you know?
I miss writing. Too much work at work lately. I'll try to be better. I also have my old journal [thanks Mullaney] and will attempt to finish the archives one of these days. I don't have dates on the entries, so after Dec. 2003 is kind of a mystery.
It needs to be done to complete my head.
*smooches to Sassy Sarah, bookie, minou, snit, dano, g-man, GDW, L(space)D*
Who else is here? It's so quiet I hear fucking crickets when I type.
Peace and Petunias to you all.
Oh. By the way.
The end:
[quote from Mullaney]
I'm not sure why you are showing up on the user list [reported to me by a friend of mine]. I haven't lifted the ban. I don't think I'm going to lift it either. I was disappointed with some of the things you said about us on your new site and think it's best to leave the ban in place.
[end of the end of the end of the end. period.]
Can you blame him?
I can't.
I had thought a small glimmer existed that the actual Debster was still remembered more than the cunt Deb_u. Because some of you still love me and I know that. And I love you all the more for it.
And yeah. I am pretty upset, but I'm not going to tell you.
Because you all knew it anyway.
Posted by debutaunt at May 24, 2004 11:24 AMI think it's pretty bullshitty for him to use what you write on the site you pay for (theoretically--and we need to swap names on the account) as ammo for his site.
Seems people are just generally shitty these days.
Posted by: Sarah at May 24, 2004 01:04 PMWell that just sucks. I don't know any better way to put it. S-u-c-k-s sucks.
Posted by: Laura at May 24, 2004 02:59 PM