Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh
I'm having SAHM envy. I'm tired of working my ass off just to spend no time with my kiddo. Or to be at work when it's slow like it is. Talk about boredom.
It feels completely unnatural. Really it does.
I read the mommyblogs and they all are up to their eyeballs in laundry, kid poop, the drone of it all and how it can get sometimes.
But I really want to be there. Sitting at this desk all day reading about it makes me want to stay home all day. I want to be doing my laundry. Because there's nothing worse than being at work all day when you know you have stuff to do at home. I want to cook dinner and be all Stepford. And when I get home, I'm too tired to do all the things I plan to in my head. Like make spinach enchiladas. Or make a beautiful salad. Or finger paint with my child.
I'm obviously burnt out on this job. I was thinking about seeing if my dad can help me bail out. To see if the trust would pay my bills and my tuition so I could go back and get teacher certified. I've checked into that program a few times, and unless I have a sugar daddy or a nanny to watch Zoe while I'm in classes, I am not sure if I could make it work on my own.
Although I heard that once you were on track it was easier to find a teaching job.
I need benefits though, so I can't quit and substitute teach.
Shit. I just need to win the lottery.
So while you SAHMs are out there, have a good day for me today, ok? I'm missing my kid every minute today.
Or bitches, someone find me a man that wants a SAHM as a wife. I like sex. I like to do laundry. I like to clean my house. And I like Sears power tools as gifts.
Posted by debutaunt at March 8, 2005 11:21 AMHey there! Are you in H-town, Texas? (I ask because I know Hilary was here at some point this weekend for the rodeo) Anyway, if you are, I have a certification program for you! I live in Houston and did an accelerated program that took a year, was done mostly online with one Saturday a month class time. I am a single mom and my daughter was not even a year old when I started. I worked full time too. Of course, am i teaching now? No. But I finished the coursework and I have taken one of the state test! It was through LeTourneau University, off 610 and San Felipe. Feel free to email me with any questions!
Posted by: Alison at March 8, 2005 12:20 PM