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Half Dead

Ok, I stink. I stink, as Zoe says, like a Robot. As soon as I'm done, I'm going to go take a shower.

I don't have mono, epstein barr, or problems with my thyroid - yay.

But I still feel absolutely HORRIBLE. I can barely get out of bed and when I do even the smallest of things, I'm so out of breath.

I didn't go to work yesterday or today. My ears and throat hurt like a mofo and keep me awake at night. I don't know what to do. I can't keep missing work, but I haven't felt this bad in years.

My doctor said that if these antibiotics don't make me feel better by the end of the dose, to call him back and come back in to see him. He thinks the strep infection has been going on for a while. So it's zapping my energy.

I am so tired, I had zero energy to take Zoe to school today. So she's flitting about the house. I had to log in to check my bank account as I've spend a bazillion dollars on meds and doctor visits lately. So far so good I think.

I wish my mom were here. I do. I miss her. I miss someone taking care of me when I'm sick. I actually cooked dinner last night. How fucked up is that? I don't have money for takeout because we did that pretty much all last week. It's so difficult to deal with Zoe when I feel so bad. I wish I could even take her somewhere so she could run around and stuff, but I am too drained.

Yesterday I sucked it up and took her to school. Then I grocery shopped a bit. It wore me out and I had to sleep. For THREE FREAKING HOURS!

Who the fuck does laundry when they are sick? Me. I'm a sick motherfucker, but my laundry is getting done.

It makes me nearly pass out, but motherfucker, my clothes are clean.

I still want my mom. :(

Posted by debutaunt at April 5, 2005 12:58 PM