Me and my chemo, Uma, got all fucking assassination mode last night.
Chemo kills all your blood cells - the white and the red. The white cells are the ones that went bonkers and reproduced at a crazy rate - thus the cancer of your blood. When I first was tested on Friday when I was admitted to MD Anderson, my white blood count was 125,000. The normal rate should be below about 11,000.
Well they skyrocketed on 10/27 to 171,000. My first day of chemo only blasted 1,000 cells. I was thinking... shit... How long is this going to take?
Now the bad news is that my red blood count is really low. Like low enough that I need a platelet transfusion this morning. They should be around 140-440 and mine are currently at 3. THREE! So this is dangerous because I can bleed really easily - like bruise bad or have internal bleeding if I'm not careful.
But last night, after that rough fucking day from hell, I listened to this feng shui Natures Meditation cd that my massage therapist left me the other day. It was surreal. I had to be medicated with a lil sumpin sumpin as I just couldn't seem to calm down last night.
So I sat here in the dark, a little high, with the music on, and looked at pictures on the web of Uma (one I posted) and thought that I can do this and I will. Not an option - but a fact.
Zoe's name is Greek for "Full of Life," or "Life Giving." And she truly is the reason I am going to fucking fight like hell on this one. So she is completely living up to her name.
So, my friends, guess how much ass me and Uma kicked yesterday? I was at 170,000 crazy white blood cells and this morning I'm at:
60,600 white blood cells.
WOO!
I'm kicking ass. I feel ok, but the blood sugar issues are still a little wonky from some of the meds.
Ok. Time to eat.
Peace and More Peace.
Today's assignment: Put on some music that will make you do something inspirational.
Posted by debutaunt at October 29, 2005 08:41 AMKick Ass! Go Deb Go!
Posted by: D1 at October 29, 2005 09:06 AMOh man, I just gave my 4 year old daughter a big huge squeeze for you babe. Keep on kicking butt!
Oh, and my daughter put on my reggae Christmas CD (believe me, it is on year round!) and we will dance for you. Now hurry up and kick that cancer's ass so you come down to Friendswood and dance too!
Alison
Posted by: Alison at October 29, 2005 09:56 AMWe are behind you pushing.
You know that. This is a great step! You will do it and do it in style.
We will be there at any time and in any way.
Love you and Zoester.
Dangit Deb - I give my blood freely several times a year, and God I wish I could go give for you now. But you know my story. Unfortunately, my blood level is still about 1/3 less than what the body requires, so they won't let me give. But you can be damn sure that the second my level is back up, I'm gonna have them drain as much as they can and slap your name on it!!
Love you girl - you go kick that bitch's ass!!
Posted by: Legalmag at October 29, 2005 10:35 AMWOOO! you and Uma kicked some SERIOUS ass last night! Dracula Blood is cowering under the covers in his footie-jammies i imagine. ;)
you go Deb! hugs to you and Zoe too :)
Posted by: nine at October 29, 2005 11:05 AMTake that Dracula Blood! Good too see the treatment began working the 2nd time. Sorry about your lovely hair, but some crazy wigs will be great fun until it grows back. You could pretend you're Ru Paul!
Posted by: Thorn at October 29, 2005 11:44 AMIt's amazing the meanings behind the names we give our children. I just can't get over that.
Love you lots sweetie.
I put on some old school TLC and listened to Red Light Special.... oh yes, color me inspired. ;)
Kick ass chica...you're rockin it.
Posted by: Ctal at October 29, 2005 05:26 PMI love that you are healing and kicking dracula blood ass so well!
Hottie - if you can get pressies from people let me know, I want to send you something.
xxx
M
hell yea girl keep kicking ass!!!woohoooo:)
Posted by: beth at October 30, 2005 12:32 PMkisses and hugs, debu_asskicker.
Posted by: Rachel at October 30, 2005 02:12 PM