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It's a Monkey Kind of Day

Well me and Methotrexie did a good job. You are supposed to drink a ton of water, then they test your blood to see if you've "flushed" it out of your system. I got it right on the first shot. But of course, I'm sure you didn't expect any less.

So they were able to move on to the next drug, Cytarabine. Tara for short. Same side effects as the Trexie, but it also can cause fevers (SH*T!) and can cause these weird eye issues. So they just gave me some steroid eye drops. Now they are buggin.

I feel pretty good. I was able to haul ass down to Starbucks this morning and get me a venti iced nonfat latte. Now that's devotion to my caffeine habit.

I am starting to really miss Zoe. Sis #2 said she's got some funky cough, so I can't even see her anytime soon, but I notice I miss her more at night. Because when we were home, that was the time we spent most together.

The routine:
Picked her up at 6:15, dinner, some tv

Bathtime for Z, shower for me

Lotion for both of us (hey, moisturizer is definitely your friend - never to early to start)

Booktime - we had started reading this princess book. Each night a different story and Zoe was starting to point out the words she knew. I also would have her sound out words like swimming or monkey. Every night she was learning more and more, and I miss being able to see her do that.

Then we'd snooze it. I have a feeling that I was starting to get sick around the same time I was starting to go to bed right after Zoe. She'd go down at like 8 - 8:30 and I'd be out by 9:00 pm. I used to be a night owl. 11pm or midnight. But it's been a long while since those days.

I miss smooshing her. And kissing her cheeks. I've only been able to see her twice in a month. And each time we both had masks and gloves. It's starting to become unbearable.

*sigh*

But it is what it is, and I'm hoping that when all of this is over that I will have my energy back and we can do some fun stuff like we used to.

Say some prayers for my Zoe. I know she is doing well, but I also know she misses me something fierce. If it's anything as close to what I miss her, it must be hu-mangous as she would say.

I can do this. Say it with me. I *can* do this. I will do this. I am doing this.

Today I want you all to go enjoy the outdoors. Rainy, snowy, whatever. I waited all summer for the heat to be-gone, and now that it's my kind of cold, I'm totally stuck inside. So go enjoy this Saturday for me.

Yep. I can do this.

Posted by debutaunt at November 19, 2005 09:56 AM