December 05, 2005

Why Is It

That the morning comes so quickly?

I wanted to sleep more, but have an 8:15 appointment at the hospital to get some bloodwork done.

Welcome to my world.

I dreamt last night that I was in a "safe house" with my ex boyfriend, the surgeon, who wanted me there to protect me from all these treatments. He said I needed to be in a different house. He said the treatments were toxic and my body was becoming radioactive.

Which isn't surprising because I've been a bit anxious. My family has been talking about finding me a two bedroom apartment closer to the med center. Or possibly finding me some type of assisted living center. Before any of this, I could barely afford my one bedroom. Now that I have no income, I can't imagine a two bedroom.

I hate to move, but I'm not going to think about it right now. Not yet. Not anymore.

This coffee is good. That's all that matters right now. Just a cup.

I can do this.

Posted by debutaunt at December 5, 2005 06:55 AM
Comments

You bet your bottom your going to beat this.
Take each step at a time.
Enjoy your coffee.
xx

Posted by: lynne at December 5, 2005 07:11 AM

coffee does make it all better for a while doesn't it?

and yes, you CAN do this.
*hugs*

Posted by: nine at December 5, 2005 08:43 AM

Good luck with bloodwork. And just think One.Step.At.A.Time.
you CAN do this.

Posted by: Islay Girl at December 5, 2005 10:14 AM

see?
we all agree...
start with the coffee, then the bloodwork and move
on from there, one foot in front of the other...

Posted by: blackbird at December 5, 2005 12:13 PM

Anxiety about your living situation is verboten. You only worry about getting more better. Seriously.

Call me if you want to talk more about it. I have more thoughts about it than we talked about before.

Just spend your energy on kicking cancer's ass. We will figure out the rest.

Posted by: Sis#1 at December 5, 2005 02:57 PM