I just got the call that Clem has finally passed away.
When I was in the hospital, I talked to my doctor about him a little bit and she seemed concerned that it would upset me to be around that situation. Which is actually so far from the truth. I was allright, because I know that I will be fine. It's just not my time yet, and I know that.
It was hard in that it was difficult for me to see someone that beloved go through all that with his family having to watch idly by. It is hard for me to conceive how much he, at his age, went through with his long battle with leukemia. I mostly just prayed that he was in no pain; I was sending the no pain vibes across that floor. And that he was also not aware of what was going on. I prayed for his family, that they would gather their strength to get through this.
I think that people should be able to die like that. While it would have been better had he been at home, at least he was constantly surrounded by those that loved him. I can think of no better way to go - knowing that you are surrounded by love and safe.
I know it's not hot outside, but this week I want you all to go out and buy a can or bottle of beer and drink it. His beer of choice was Budweiser, and if I could drink alcohol right now, I'd drink a big Bud toast to Clem.
I will fight this. I will fight this fucking disease for me and for Clem. He'd want me to.
Posted by debutaunt at December 21, 2005 02:22 PMI'll drink to Clem tonight...
Posted by: blackbird at December 21, 2005 03:59 PMRest in peace Clem. I'm not a beer person, but I'll crack one open tonight for you.
Posted by: Crazy Lady at December 21, 2005 04:28 PMsafe journey Clem, you left being loved and you'll be missed
Deb...i think you should write a book when all this is over...a survivor's guide, because you inspire so much within us...and i know that if i was ever struck down by anything along the lines you're dealing with....your words would be doubly important
i read you every day....and thank you for the 'love' thread and thoughts....they really struck a chord
oh and i LOVE the 'it's like fondue around here'..that really cracked me up!!!!
power on woman!!!!
Posted by: Fiona at December 21, 2005 05:47 PMI am glad that he finally passed and I pray it was painless.
Love you Deb.
Posted by: Rachel in AK at December 21, 2005 08:20 PMHi There!
I just wanted to let you know that I'm rooting for you. I found you through Manolo awhile back and have been reading ever since. I share your blog with my boyfriend too and he loves it. You are such a strong person - our hearts go out to you and your girl! Continue to breathe deep, relax, let the universe take care of you right now.
Happy Solstice,
Abby