December 27, 2005

Counts

I find out for sure this afternoon where my counts are, but I sure wouldn't be surprised if they are in the can right now.

I don't think I've ever felt this tired before. Not even after my c-section with Zoe have I felt as draggin ass as I have been for the past few days. While it was lovely to see my daughter, it was also horrible because I pretty much couldn't get off the couch. And so far, no amount of caffeine has helped.

I am thinking that I will/should be getting a blood transfusion sometime today. I don't know for sure, but I really hate feeling so horribly tired. It makes it hard to function and I've not been sleeping well. And my vision is blurry from these dumb steroids.

Today is going to be a very long day at the clinic. Lab work and two doctor's appointments. I know I'm going to be in a wheelchair too, which I dislike. I really hate feeling so weak that I can't walk.

And I've noticed that I have been worrying more than I should be. So today I'm going to snap out of it and just continue to pray and give it all up. Worrying never solves anything, nor will it.

I am too tired to think, so I'm cutting this short.

I know I can do this. I just want to sleep a bit more.

Today's assignment is to just let go. Worries, grudges, anything that is on your mind that you are upset about. Worrying never helps, otherwise I'd tell you to go for it. Give your worries up to God, Buddha, Dick Cheney, whomever; I am going to try to practice this myself today. I hope you do too.

Thanks for the reminder, Monkey Boy!

Posted by debutaunt at December 27, 2005 06:10 AM
Comments

rest
move slowly
do what you need to do...

Posted by: blackbird at December 27, 2005 06:35 AM

I'll be thinking good, energetic "feel better" thoughts for you today, Deb!

Posted by: Ninotchka at December 27, 2005 09:23 AM

i've been thinking about you a lot, deb, and sending STRONG vibes your way. I loved the pix on christmas.

Posted by: Islay Girl at December 27, 2005 10:03 AM

Hi there sweetheart...
Don't stress yourself - you know that will only make it worse.. Keep warm, keep safe and rest, rest and rest again...

I love your blog...You are linked...

Minerva

Posted by: Minerva at December 27, 2005 12:08 PM

YOU DESERVE SOME BIG HUGGIES TODAY! SO IM PASSES THEM ALONG TO YOU! AND SOME MIGHTY PRAYERS!YOU CAN DO THIS DONT FORGET THAT! YOUR STRONG!
love ya hun

Posted by: beth at December 27, 2005 01:14 PM

Deb, I like your attitude. I know you will get through today and tomorrow you will be bouncing back. You have lots of people praying for you. I'm doubling up on them for you today. Take care.

Posted by: Kay at December 27, 2005 06:27 PM

Thank you for the reminder Deb. Sometimes it takes someone else telling you what to do to make you realize you're doing it all wrong! I'm letting it go, sister.

Love you.

Posted by: Rachel at December 27, 2005 08:48 PM

Thanks for your insights these past few days and for the pictures. You will do this.

Posted by: CJ at December 28, 2005 12:07 AM

Hey man...sorry I missed the party.

Posted by: tracey at April 21, 2006 01:19 PM