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One of the most beautiful pictures I've seen in a long time...if EVER!

That picture says so much. IT is so expressive and touching. It made me cry.

A picture is worth a thousand words.

Beautiful.

I am not going to shed one tear because you
will show us a million more pictures.

Love,
Nikki

Yes, you can do this. This photo is the reason why. You have the Keeper of Your Hope to give you strength and carry you through.

You can do this. So can she. You both can do this.

All kinds of prayers coming your way!

So looking forward to more pictures like this.

3 little words that hold the whole world! Simply a treasure, as are you...

alan

Hi Deb

I’ve been reading you for a few months and think of you often. You inspire and challenge me with your tenacity but I also often ache for you when I think of the mental stuff you go through. Beautiful to see how you handle it and you’re a gift to us who you share your journey with through your blog.

I’m also a single mom (2 boys aged 14 and 12) and I can’t imagine being without them. Such joy! But I also know the struggles for survival and for answers to life’s challenges. I somehow ended up earning a living as a sex-worker so have had my fair share of drama and struggle. Nothing like cancer and something I chose myself so I don’t even compare it to your struggle, but still it’s been a tough road. I’ve had two friends loose loved ones to suicide. I see their heartache and struggle and it changes my perception of life. I see their deep, deep suffering and how powerless they feel at the absoluteness of what has happened. They can do nothing to change what is.

I was reading something today that made me think of you and I wanted to offer it to you. My intention is not to claim to know where you’re at or what will or won’t help. It was just an insight on suffering that blew my mind, and as I say, it made me think of you. It comes from a book by Ekhart Tolle called A New Earth. Maybe you know it? It's too long to post here so I've put it on my blog for you.

He’s busy explaining some truths about life’s reality and that there are 2 dimensions: the physical things we can see, hear and touch as well as thoughts and feelings (which he calls form); and then the deeper reality of inner spirit (which he calls consciousness.)
He’s also explaining that we can choose to either resist what is (on the level of form) or we can simple say yes to it, (since it already is and so cannot be changed in this moment.)

"When you are present, when your attention is fully in the Now, that Presence will flow into and transform what you do. There will be quality and power in it. You are present when what you are doing is not primarily a means to an end (money, prestige, winning) but fulfilling in itself, when there is joy and aliveness in what you do. And, of course, you cannot be present unless you become friendly with the present moment." Ekhart Tolle (A New Earth)

Much Love
Jeanne

Good post, Jeanne.

Hi Deb, thinking of you today and sending you a hug ((((((( Prayers and Hugs for Deb today and every day ))))))))

Oy-Zoe is the keeper of all of our hopes.

Deb she is precious, this picture is precious,
and you; well you are beyond precious.

I see in your smile, love, kindness, a little
"sassy going on".

You know our mantra, "Sarah has your back
covered". As I told you yesterday the crew
went to the temple. The kids said "we are going
for "that UMA Lady". Nobody pinched anybody
while we were in the temple (good sign) We
said our Hebrew prayers that we say when
people face a challenge. My twins are in
Hebrew school 3 afternoons a week. They are
getting ready for their bar/bat mitzvah next
year. Which brings me to-you "so have to come
with Zoe".

Today I feel good, I know God heard us yesteday.

We love you Debuma.

Shoshie

I adore that picture. It says it all.

Praying for you to kick ass today like Uma.

Good luck today...I'll be thinking of you.
So will all the members of the Egel Nest.

Bradley
The Egel Nest

You and Zoe are now on my computer screen.
This is the picture I will see each morning.

We all think eyes are the windows of your soul.
Mother and daughter, your eyes, the love
expressed-will be your keeper.

Everyone else here we will keep you in our prayers. Shoshie is in charge of entertainement.
Nikki will keep us in line. Rachel will be Rachel. The other sisters who don't always
write. You have squeezed into our hearts.
Every last one of them. We have oodles of hearts
within the SWLF contingent.

Today think of how many people love you.

Lisabeth

Hi there. Amanda suggested I pop over and share my thoughts. Since Amanda is always so wise, I of course heeded her advice. A couple of thoughts:

1 - I echo the earlier sentiments of other commenters: this picture is stunningly beautiful. You have a unique vision on the world, and I just know it will give you strength.

2 - Leukemia has touched many members of my family as well. Yet I am amazed at the resilience of everyone who had it. Their courage shaped me and everyone else who came afterward. Your strength is reflected in your family.

3 - You are surrounded by people who you know, and people who know you only through electrons. We are all praying for you.

Looks like I have a new best-read site to add to my daily rounds. God bless.

Saying a little prayer for you now....and every morning.

That picture made me bawl.

-Jess

Deb
What a Heartfelt picture. It's a classic: unconditional love, devotion and dedication of mother and child. You are so lucky to have each other.
I'm counting on you to kick ca's ass. Feel the power when the BMT begins. I'm thinking and praying for you and Zoe.
If you need anything...just say the WORD and i will have it to you overnight delivery.
Peace and Prayers from Boston
Nancy

Thinking of you.

Such a beautiful picture. It says so much. So much more than I can say. You are in my thoughts.

...thinking and praying for you today and every day.

I look forward to hearing about how you are doing soon.

Beautiful picture. Thinking of you.

Hi Deb,

I've also been reading you for quite a while. Somehow I stumbled upon...not sure how. I've enjoyed your writing and sarcasm. I can relate to your tarty nature and I found you witty and funny. I took a break reading, only to return to find out your diagnosis. If I was shocked, I can only imagine how it hit you.

Sometimes its difficult to read, because this cancer thing can happen to anyone. It's scary. But, I still read and have been humbled and inspired by you. You are an amazing, courageous woman. Your daughter is adorable and very lucky to have such a strong mommy. As a nursing student (graduating in 7 weeks!) I have read about your hospital stays and the medical part of things with interest. When you mentioned about not being able to bring fresh flowers into the room...I thought YES! I know that and actually remembered! :) I hope your nurses have all been wonderful and supportive.

I'm sure you've heard your fair sure of cancer stories. My mom was diagnosed several years ago. It was a very, very scary time for me...for my family. I soon learned many things....one being that people survive cancer. They do it all the time. Many, many people. No doubt you will.

My mom had a mamogram that spring. By Thanksgiving she found a lump. It turned out to be at least 2 spots (maybe three...i've blocked much of this out) of what was said to be an aggressive form. Mastectomy, chemo, reconstruction...she is healthy and cancer free today. She is also amazing and strong and beautiful...just as you are.

{{hugs}}

Beautiful. Simply Beautiful. Much love to you today.

Just dropping off some more love, some more prayers. :)

Praying for you Deb- thinking about you all the time and wishing and wishing with all my heart. Love and healing from Oz, Yasminxxxx

Hello Houston:

We still have class; sit up straight. The Yiddish word of the day. (drum roll here)
MISHPOCHA which means family and extended family. You know the drill we use it in a sentence.
All the SWLF crew is part of your mishpocha here in blog land.

Don’t think you have a free hall pass and we are not having class.

Teacher Shoshanna who has a ruler.

When you have time check your email-Nikki sent
you something you may like :) can you say
do re me fa so la si do (you get the picture)

I had Sam print the picture of you and Zoe-
how fitting you are on are fridge. Sarah's
2nd home was my fridge.

Sending big hugs and positive thoughts your way!!
Dianna

Well dammit, I'm crying again. What an absolutely stunning and beautiful picture. I love that Zoe is the keeper of your hope. Such a beautiful blessing...I can't even begin to tell you how much it touches me. Peace.

Sending you big hugs today, you are in my thoughts and prayers.

Praying for you. Hope you are well. Good luck, Deb.

That is the most beautiful picture I have ever seen. You made me cry again. But I know that you will continue to share more beautiful and fun times with us. You have all my prayers.
Cami

Everyone at the Egel Nest hopes everything went well for you today...Rest..and be well...

Bradley
The Egel Nest

Just got back online after more than a week off line, and you're the first place I checked. I've been keeping you in the front of my thoughts and prayers all week, but now especially today and tomorrow. Fight hard, Deb. You have every reason to win! love,
~Shari

Every time I come here to see how you are doing, to check in with my debu I get hit with a million different feelings, thoughts, words. Then I get to the comments and I go blank. Mostly because everything I think and feel was well described, or mentioned by one of your other lovely commenters/readers/well-wishers.

I can't say I don't know how you do it, or where you find the strength, because you showed us exactly how and why with one picture.

I know I'll face some kind of hardship in my life someday. I only hope that God grants me one OUNCE of your stregnth and I know I'll be fine.

Love You Sweetie. Forreals.