February 21, 2006
Day -6 is Bizarro
No hall waiting today. I was the first patient and the transport guy came quickly to get me afterwards. No drama necessary.
I do have major yuck mouth. Like crackers in your mouth and, well, way too much spit. It's weird. My tongue is completely white. No amount of brushing, swishing with the mouthwash they gave me is helping. At least so far no mouth sores. Let's keep it that way, shall we?
I did make some major lap-age around the nurses station. I've taken two long walks today. I'm going to keep moving as long as I still can. I was kind of out of breath, but I wanted to get my bootie out of this room.
I got even more itunes bucks from Ms. Angela G. I downloaded the "debu_mix" (look it up) she made for me. I also downloaded the Jeff Buckley album Grace. Ten songs took two and a half hours. I don't know how you dial upers do it. I so miss my wireless.
My counts are dropping. I know it's going to get worse. I hope to feel as good as I did today. I am going to try really really hard. I am afraid of feeling incapacitated. I want to keep strong.
I love my night nurse, but she nearly possibly killed me tonight. I take two types of insulin, one that is fast acting and one that works over a long period. She mixed them up and almost gave me 65 units of the fast one instead of the dose of 16. I only noticed THANK GOD because she didn't mix them into one syringe. The fast acting is clear and the long acting is cloudy. That is the only reason I'm not in a diabetic coma right now. Ok. Well I don't know what it would have done, but it most certainly couldn't have been a good thing.
I know she was tripping out about it. She's hella cool and has taken good care of me. But that was f*cking scary, pardon my French. I'm not quite sure what to do about it. I don't want her to get into trouble, but damn that was not cool. If my sugars had dropped really low, they don't come in here often enough to have noticed whether I was out or just sleeping. This gives me a really bad feeling.
And on top of that, I had a horrible dream last night that I was dying. I had pneumonia, and they couldn't get my lungs to clear. My room was full of people. They were all crying. The room I'm in looks just like Clems. The one he died in. It's one of the smallest ones on the floor. I woke up and I couldn't shake that feeling all day. The idea of saying goodbye to everyone. Maybe now that I blogged it, it won't be prophetic.
Overall, kind of a freaky day. Got some fun phone time with Monkey Boy and he made me play the giggle bear a bunch. The laugh from the bear sounds exactly like Zoe does when I tickle her. You can't possibly be sad when you hear it. I wish I could figure out how to download that laugh and post it so you could play it too.
Here is the screensaver on my phone. I had just gotten my phone and told Zoe to make a face. We both made exactly the same face. Is she my mini me or what? I miss her bunches. More than that.
Well it's midnight and the ghouls are coming in about four hours to a) take my vitals b) weigh me c) disturb my peaceful, drug induced slumber. So I better go.
I can do this. Even if the hospital folk are all wack.
You assignment today is to floss. And I want you to laugh a bunch. Tickle your kid(s) if you have them. Or go see a comedy show. I recommend renting something by Dane Cook. Watch The Princess Bride or something equally as silly. I'd loan you the Giggle Bear, but I need him.
Wow Deb. Good catch on the insulin. Look out for number one and the rest will fall into place chickaboo. I'm off to floss. May you have a blissful restful night.
Lorraine
Posted by: Lorraine at February 22, 2006 12:45 AMholy crap. i can't imagine...yeah you don't maybe want to get her in trouble but THE FREAKOUT that must have been! eeeeeehh!
you and zoe totally DO have the same smile. aw.
hope you feel better in the morning. ;)
Posted by: Sarcomical at February 22, 2006 01:02 AMGood Morning Deb,
I am very glad you had a better day yesterday.
Maybe they knew you had a whole Debuteam up in arms. Since the team is in the thousands they
were a little anxious.
What's up with the night nurse and your Humalog.
Hell it says on the BOTTLE Humalog and Humalog R.
It's a very good thing you were on the ball and
caught her F%^&^% mistake. Do you want me to come
and be your body guard?
I will have my comedy at work. One of our Dept.
Admin. is pretty funny. She makes me laugh, and
someday's as you know, laughter is the best Rx.
I think Sis 1 should bring your boa over to you
if you don't have it already. Tell them you
are the Queen of Something. I will ask Shoshie
to work on where you are the QUEEN.
You are doing great sweetie. I know that mouth
business is nasty. I won't give you any advice
today. I am sure you get plenty of it-now that's
not to say I won't be back later. I may not be
able to refrain. :)
Squeeze that foot for all of us.
Day 4 and Deb is the winner in the ring.
Love,
Nikki
I hope you told Sis 2 we were very greatful
for her advice on where NOT to put cream!
Beautiful phone pic! Thanks for sharing. I'd love to hear the giggle bear, but I'll just use my imagination for now. Good catch by you on the mixup. You have to stay strong so you can be on top of things like that. Oh, and dreams are not prophetic; they are just manifestations of things you are worried about. Looked at that way, your dream makes perfect sense (to me anyway).
Posted by: karen at February 22, 2006 07:10 AMokay...okay...
focus on the funny.
Dane Cook.
Freakin hilarious.
Did you see him on SNL just before Christmas (I think)? he did a joke during the monologue about a cashew? did ya see it?
cause I can't believe the network let it go --
if you didn't, email me and I will tell you what he said.
Keep going.
STAY ON TARGET...
Hey Deb! Another day over...one day closer to the goal. I'm sorry you are not getting a good uninterrupted sleep at night; do I need to make you some signs to post on your door like, "KEEP OUT! BEWARE OF ALLIGATORS,CHEETAS AND QUICKSAND!"?
Weather outside today is crap so you are not missing anything. The boy has "toddler aerobics" at the library which is hysterical. I will try to take some pics if I am not laughing too hard.
Cheers, Deb! Keep up the hard work. You are so close now!
Posted by: sally at February 22, 2006 07:50 AMStay Strong Deb and I gave my Maddie an extra hug,kiss & tickle this morning. Must have been in honor of you & Zoe :)
Posted by: Patti_Cake at February 22, 2006 08:10 AMWowwowwow...that was a great save. Sometimes I wonder what those hospital folks are thinking. I know they get so stressed etc but damn how scary. I love the giggle bear. I'm glad you have him. Here's a hug for you sweetie. {{{{{Deb}}}}} Sending good vibes your way today. Peace.
Posted by: Traci at February 22, 2006 08:36 AMDeb-I have compiled a short list for you. Today’s Yiddish word is LOSER, the following list are some of the
Yiddish words you can use for calling people LOSERS. Sam helped with the list. My personal favorite is the first one “pisher”, followed by “schlepper”.
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pisher
yold
schlepper
schlump
shmutte
shmendrek
shmugegge
shnorrer
paskudnik
no-goodnik
Tomorrow….hold on to your hat. I have decided you need some of what we call our “curses”. They are not cuss words, but it’s something we would use if somebody really pisses us off.
I think the NUMB-NUT who did the OOPS is this the right insulin? She is tops on the list for the Loser Award of the day. Would you tell Nikki we are so happy she pointed out the difference in insulin for us
Do you remember that chewy candy bar French Chews? I know your tongue looks like you ate a vanilla one.
That has to be a yuck feeling. Sarah kvetched about her tongue all the time. Have you tried sucking (OK NO COMMENTS FOLKS) on a piece of hard candy (sugar-free)?
I love the picture of you and Zoe, I love anything silly and fun. As you can tell since I do this little Yiddish for you. I laugh every day when I put this together. It’s fun and it’s harmless, and it brings back many good memories of my Mother. In our house she would holler at us in Yiddish, German, and English. As you know with big families somebody was always doing something.
We are so proud of the way you are handling your challenge. Your guardian angel Sarah-hell she is jumping up and down. You are her kind of “gal”.
Shalom and Love Deb,
Shoshie
I will get it together and think what country
you rule as Nikki suggested.
Okay. Yikes on the insulin. Seriously NOT GOOD.
((((HUGS))))
I love the screensaver.
Posted by: Kami at February 22, 2006 09:20 AMI just came across your blog recently and have been reading every day this week. You seem like such a great gal. My thoughts and prayers are with you ~ Stay strong!
Posted by: Tammie at February 22, 2006 09:52 AMOk I have it now. I know you are Queen of the
Universe. But we need a place these "folks"
can relate to in the real world.
Since you are ROYAL. I thought OK Europe.
And I decided on a town in Holland called Delft.
It start's with a D. It's a beautiful town.
Today we officially proclaim you Queen of Delft. Make sure they all bow. Get it going on Queen of
Delft. Tell them you need the Royal Room ALREADY.
Love,
Shoshie
You have no idea how great that picture looks
of you and Zoe. I am typing and laughing. Hard
task for me.
Wow glad you caught the insulin thing, man that is
scary. I'm sure the nurse just had an off night, maybe
you could talk w/her so she's aware of the concern, that's
the last thing you need to worry about is people doing
their jobs correctly.
It's so refreshing that you are in good spirits. It's inspiring.
I sent my sons laugh from my phone to my e-mail. I swear
that's the best medicine to hear your child laugh.
Take care honey, we're all here w/you. Big Hugs & Laughs.
Are you allowed gum?
Deb,
I'm SOOO GLAD you had a better day. Remember to stand your ground the patient is really the boss. Besides, you are Royal----Deb Queen of Delft! Remind them of that. If you do get some hard candy, try to avoid mint. Some have told me that it can burn your already tender mouth.
Love the pic of you and Zoe. She is definitely a mini you!
Keep up the good work!
Cami
I have been reading your blog for less than a week and it has already affected me profoundly! Thanks for sharing this horrific experience so honestly. You are an amazing woman!
You CAN do this...
Posted by: ZuphChic at February 22, 2006 11:03 AMBeautiful pic of Zoe and you. Thanks for sharing your stories. {{{{HUGS}}}}
Posted by: Trish at February 22, 2006 12:24 PMAw, sweetie. Hang in there. I say that every time, don't I? Well, I mean it. I'll be thinking about you.
Posted by: CircusKelli at February 22, 2006 01:03 PMDebbeeeeee,
I'm in one of my Religious Educators mode, so here goes: God has given you your eyes and left you with your sense, so that you caught the nurse’s mistake. Because of your catching her error, she freak out, became aware of her sloppiness, and probably was hypervigilant the rest of the night.
You not only saved yourself, but also probably save someone else’s life. And at the very least you saved her job and her overall well being. (You think she felt bad about messing up; she would have felt a thousand times worse hurting someone by mistake.)
Good for you.
Also, I wanted to put in a good word for the movie, "Airplane." Very funny movie that definitely needs to be revisited. The scene that is coming to mind is the one where the stewardess is singing to the patient (the little girl from the LOVE BOAT,) and accidentally knocks her IV out with the guitar handle.
Funny stuff.
(And yes, I get the irony of thinking about that after what happened to my sister. But what can I say,...)
p.s.- I do favor the t.v. version the movie, 'cause I'm not so much a T & A fan. (Unless they are my T & A. I'm a fan of my own.)
Posted by: sis #2 at February 22, 2006 01:37 PMOh stewardess, I speak jive.
Posted by: D at February 22, 2006 02:12 PMThere's no reason to become alarmed, and we hope you'll enjoy the rest of your flight. By the way, is there anyone on board who knows how to fly a plane?
Heh.
Though I will say that the scene involving the shit actually hitting the fan really is amazingly gross, and I want to know how they did that. Like if it really was poop. You don't see that on the TV edited version.
BTW, good news Debufans. Spoke to various sorts at the hospital today and it looks like the Debu is getting moved to a bigger room. This evening. The location looks like it is nicer and it is away from the helipad. :)
Posted by: Sis#1 at February 22, 2006 02:48 PMDebuma-Your-Highness, this hospital of yours must be up for the "Comedy of Errors" Award, a recognition of sub-excellence in health care. I think this explains why they have the Queen of Delft confined to a tiny room, personnel leaving her alone in hallways, making repeated medication errors, etc.
You've been in my thoughts all day today -- I hope you're asserting your royal privileges, Highness!!
Posted by: eclectic at February 22, 2006 03:31 PM