February 26, 2006

Walk the Line

Today I am wearing my Monkey Jammies.

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And I just went for a walk round the nurses station with my Zoe Monkey in tow (aka as Zoe said when she gave him to me 'it's an oranga-matang, mommy')

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No more horking, but sometimes I wish I could. For all the drugs, I'm thinking the mouth sores are on their way. I'm kind of losing interest in eating, which is a very bizarre feeling. Still, I force myself to eat. I can't take these pills on an empty stomach. It just sucks when food doesn't taste right. You gear up for a pineapple smoothie and it tastes like metal.

Tomorrow is the big day. I know it will be anti-climatic. But it's my new birthday. A new beginning. New cells. Non-diseased cells.

I miss Bro #1. He is funny and sweet.

The nurses here think it's odd that I don't have anyone taking care of me and staying in my room with me. I guess the other patients have people that do. But what would someone do here? Watch me type or read email? Watch me sleep? My nurse thinks I need a phone-ectomy because I'm always on the phone with Monkey Boy or my family. One of them told me cell phones weren't allowed, but I told her they'd have to pry it from my hand before I'd let them have it. The room phones won't dial long distance without a calling card and my celly is free for nearly all my calls to my peeps.

I'm listening to all my iTunes today. I have now caught up on all my Project Runways and watched Stripes, so I think I'm good to go on the tv. I forgot how funny Stripes really was.

I know it sounds stupid, but I can feel all the prayers and well wishes. I know that this procedure basically is out of my hands. It's moving forward like a freight train and I'm just along for the ride. So I'm leaving my fate in God's hands. And you people sure have been praying. I feel like it's God American Idol or something and I'm getting all the votes.

I hope God is listening. And that he's not as cranky as Simon Cowell.

I can do this. All the popular kids say so.


Your assignment for today is to wish my Dad a Happy 70th Birthday (the 25th)! Dad kicked cancer's ass a few years back, so I have a great role model there. He's a veteran, a Deacon in his church, and the most superfantastic dad of all time.

I think my dad is the most generous person I know. He's worked so hard to take care of all of us, which was no small task. All seven kids through college. Always paid our bills, our braces, our food. And yet he still had time to be involved in his community as well.

I know people dog the Catholic church all the time, but I grew up with parents who know the true meaning of spiritual community. Their lives revolve around the church and our family. Some churches seem like all they want is your money (buy my new sermon for only $9.99) or they tell you to tithe a certain percentage of your salary. Well tithing of your time counts as well. And my folks, especially my father, have always done that. They try to be as Christ-like as possible. And that's what is really important, no?

So, happy birthday Dad. I love you infinity!

Posted by debutaunt at February 26, 2006 02:40 PM
Comments

I left you a message the other day - did you get it? I wanted to come down to sit with you, but didn't want to come until I cleared it with you. Let me know when and I am *there*. Yes, I will watch you type e-mails or talk on the phone. Whatever. I don't mind.

You are right - when I think of the ideal Catholic family, your parents immediately come to mind. They are such wonderful people and I have such fond memories of them. Send them my love.

I'll be praying for you. HARD.

Posted by: Christine at February 26, 2006 04:51 PM

I love the "orang-a-matang" monkey! And those monkey pjs just rock!! Happy Birthday, Deb-U's Daddy!! You musta been some kinda Daddy because you sure have a one-of-a-kind kinda daughter!! Carry on with the celly, girl! We'll carry on with the prayer-votes!!

Posted by: eclectic at February 26, 2006 04:53 PM

Happy Birthday to DEB'S DAD from across the miles - must be a pretty alright guy to have a daughter like you. I'M still praying - Happy New Birthday for you too Deb (for tommorow that is) Thinking of you all the time, Yasmin in Australia

Posted by: yasmin at February 26, 2006 05:23 PM

Happy Birthday, Deb's Dad! How blessed you both are, your whole family is, to have so much love. Here's to many many more years of everyone together. Now, I am going to put on my monkey jammies -- oh yea, I have Target monkey jammies, and that will be the official uniform of the evening here at casa de What Was I Thinking?!
Praying 'til God's EARS BLEED! (Don't worry, God knows how I go on, He's not offended, we're cool.)
You can do all things, through Him who strengthens you, Deb. I believe.

Posted by: Susie at February 26, 2006 05:41 PM

Happy Birthday to Deb's Dad! Your parents were great when we knew them in the KC's too! They welcomed us with open arms when we moved to POP. They're good people...and they raised some good kids! Keeping you in my prayers all the time. The worst is behind you and the best to come! Good luck tomorrow.

Posted by: Jnet at February 26, 2006 05:43 PM

Deb, you don't know me but I've been following your blog for ages now ... just want to come out of lurkdom and tell you that you are in my prayers and I am sending you lots of positive vibes for tomorrow. You are clearly an absolutely amazing woman - mother, sister, daughter, friend - and you CAN DO THIS better than anyone I know.

Big hugs and strong Uma-thoughts from "way up there" in Canada.

xoxo

Posted by: Nathalie at February 26, 2006 05:43 PM

That "sermon" was well-worth listening to! LOL

I'm not going to wish you LUCK tomorrow...because I know you're already surrounded by prayers and lots of love...

Thanks again for sharing your story...I feel privileged just reading about it!

Posted by: ZuphChic at February 26, 2006 05:55 PM

Happy Birthday to you/
Happy Birthday to you/
Happy Birthday, dear Deb's Dad/
Happy Birthday to Yoooou!

Love the monkey jammies and the oranga-matang, too! :oD

Posted by: M_D at February 26, 2006 06:31 PM

Big, honking strength and love-filled prayers for you.

Posted by: Kim at February 26, 2006 06:44 PM

Happy Birthday DAD-DEBUMA

What Makes a Dad
God took the strength of a mountain,
The majesty of a tree,
The warmth of a summer sun,
The calm of a quiet sea,
The generous soul of nature,
The comforting arm of night,
The wisdom of the ages,
The power of the eagle's flight,
The joy of a morning in spring,
The faith of a mustard seed,
The patience of eternity,
The depth of a family need,
Then God combined these qualities,
When there was nothing more to add,
He knew His masterpiece was complete,
And so,

He called it ... Dad

~~Author Unknown.~~

You are one special Dad because you have raised one special daughter.

We all hope you have a very special birthday.

THE SWLF CREW.

This part is for the Daughter of the Birthday Dad.

Now you know you made us all cry-the love of a daughter for their Father. Nothing quite like that special feeling where you know you are always your “Daddy’s girl”.

Tomorrow is your big day, a new day, with new cells, and a new you. We all believe with
every ounce of our being YOU DEBUMA will celebrate 50 more birthday’s. We are all here, we are all praying, we have faith in you, the doctor’s and GOD.

We love you DEBUMA with every cell we have and combined we have ”a whole lotta cells”.

PS. Don’t let them scare ya with that “ya can’t have the cell phone routine” you just say OH, OK.
and carry on. When you stay at THE RITZ you do what you want.

Wear your monkey jammies tomorrow and hold tight
to your Zoe monkey

LOVE EVERY SWLF

Posted by: SWLF at February 26, 2006 06:51 PM

I was just at the zoo today, seeing real orang-utans and enjoying their antics. One of them is a new momma and the zoo just let her and her baby out for us all to see. That momma took really good care of her baby, so to have an oranga-matang as your mascot is super-lucky for you. She is watching out for you. (Yeah, I've pretty much decided you've got a girl oranga-matang there, since the guys have these big pouch-things on their faces.)

So anyway, I might be a bit late in wishing your Dad a Happy 70th Birthday, but as always you and your family are in my thoughts. Looking forward to hearing all about your new birthday too.

Posted by: karen at February 26, 2006 07:43 PM

Big Birthday Wishes to Deacon J! How awesome that now Debbie will have a Magnificant Day to celebrate right after your birthday! What a terrific family of SURVIVORS!

Love the monkey pjs. I wonder if the nurse with the "rules obsession" is the same one that told me Lauren couldn't be on the floor when Clem was breathing his last breaths. I wasn't going to have her miss out on time with her granddaddy! She was certainly a stickler for the rules, and then layed on the guilt factor that "it was no problem for her but a lot of the other nurses were talking...." Things were already too difficult to manage, why do they have to inflict more "issues" to deal with? She was probably one of those that "told" when someone grabbed something out of their lunchbox before lunch time, or tried to get their homework done before they got on the bus! Tattle-tales never grow out of that, do they?

The prayers are going up.....I picture them like raindrops only going in the other direction. But I use the raindrops picture because there have to be that many heading to heaven with your name on it! I'm praying that you keep your body strong, that you maintain your positive attitude and your focus on your "Hope". I'm praying that all those that come in contact with you are blessed with the Grace of God and have ONLY your best interest in mind at the time they are with you. I'm praying that you NEVER, EVER have to be stuck in hallways alone again. I'm praying that you are comfortable, that you don't feel yucky and that if you do, they are able to control it without you having to do the barfing thang. I am asking that my pain be substituted for yours and that God's Will is done in your life. I pray for Zoe's peace and comfort and that the two of you are back in each other's embraces VERY soon. I'm praying that you dance at your great-grandchildren's wedding (and I want an invite!)

Love you,

Posted by: Denise at February 26, 2006 07:50 PM

Happy Birthday Debu_Dad! :)

Happy 'rebirth' Deb! You are certainly on my mind and in my heart. I love that bit about "I feel like it's God American Idol or something and I'm getting all the votes. "

You got it, baby... Prayers and more prayers. You relax and focus on the destination. God'll take it from here.

Love you, you and your monkey jammies.

Posted by: CircusKelli at February 26, 2006 08:19 PM

happy birthday deb's dad!

and thinking of and praying for you, deb. xo

Posted by: kristin at February 26, 2006 08:21 PM

You are doing it girl, you are kickin ass and I am damn proud of you!

Happy Birthday Deb's Dad! There is only one way to have such an awesome daughter ... having an awesome dad raise her!

Posted by: Erin at February 26, 2006 08:28 PM

Happy Birthday Deb's dad!!

Deb, when you wrote that you can feel the prayers, that is AWESOME and not stupid at all. God is listening, and with you right now. He's not cranky, but loving and kind. Not only are you in His hands, but He is cradling you in his arms. My entire family is praying for you. Myself, Phil and my boys. Have you ever heard a child pray? It is the most precious thing to her.
You have many cheerleaders, one has even waxed!! I wont name her, but she waxed for you.
Another thing, I had just got a new laptop and havent used it for 2 weeks. The first time I used it, I emailed your sister. For me, that is a very special thing. My old laptop was named Tory. She is very precious to me. That is weird!! In honor of you, i'm going to name my new laptop Uma. If thats ok with you. I hope you consider it a good thing. If you dont, please let me know.

Tomorrow, you are going to be a new you. Brand new. God will be holding you through the whole procedure, and not let you go.

Posted by: Dawn at February 26, 2006 08:33 PM

Happy Birthday. A deacon, a cancer survivor, and a vet? A role model for more than you, debutant.

Posted by: hamel at February 26, 2006 08:39 PM

OH!! You said 'peeps'!! That is so funny, because I left a comment over at Susies, and said I put a post on my site to send 'peeps' over to you. I felt odd saying peeps- she reassured me it was perfectly acceptable. Its a fun word, fun to say, fun to type!

Peeps!

Posted by: Dawn at February 26, 2006 08:39 PM

I've seen the procedure done and though it IS anti-climatic, it is awesome.

You'll do great. Hope that no one gets sick so I can see you!

Posted by: Sarcastic Journalist at February 26, 2006 08:47 PM

Happy Birthday Deb's Dad! I'm thinking of you and thinking of you my dear. Sending all good energy your way too. Peace.

Posted by: Traci at February 26, 2006 08:55 PM

OMGOSH!!! I can't believe that you said you were feeling the prayers. Actually I can believe it. This weekend on my W.A.T.CH. retreat we had about 65+ odd people praying for you. (I was praying for you hardest of all.)

Susan, single mom, who you know from daycare was on retreat and says "Hey Deb, I'm praying for you."

SIS #2 PRAYER CREW REPRESENT!!!!!

You are a very prayed over woman. I'm sorry I can't be there physically for you, but you know I'm there in spirit along with about one bizillion of your closest friends.

Hang in there! We love you so much cold sores and tongue of metal and all.

Posted by: sis #2 at February 26, 2006 09:19 PM

Happy birthday to Mr. Debutaunt!

And happy birthday to you too, Deb. A new beginning. I like that. :)

Posted by: Ern at February 26, 2006 09:26 PM

So!! I can see that you do know what is like to 'Feel' prayed for: and what is like to be sensing like all you have are your resevoir bags. At least the orangamatang has them. Stay in your groove.

Posted by: RJH at February 26, 2006 09:36 PM

I'm here again tonight because Susie dearest was being uhhhh, forceful...yeah that's it...forceful over at her place! I am sending you every ounce of positive energy I have my dear. Rest well...Peace.

Posted by: Traci at February 26, 2006 09:36 PM

:::tapping microphone:::

Is this thing on? It is? OK. Taking a page out of Susie's book, I am now going to sing to you a song which I changed just a smidge to match the life-changing events on your plate for Monday.


**ahem**

"The stem-cells will come in, tomorrow. Bet your bottom dollar that tomorrow, there'll be some. Just thinking about, to-morrow, clears away the cobwebs and the sorrow, till there's none. To-morrow, to-morrow, some new cells to-morrow, they're only a day a-waaaaay!!"

:::bowing, embarrassed:::

Posted by: eclectic at February 26, 2006 10:59 PM

Happy Birthday Deb's Dad.

Your daughter is awesome!!!!

Posted by: Missy at February 26, 2006 11:00 PM

Deb,
I will be sending prayers constantly, give us an update when you can.

You can kick this cancer's ass. And with your Brother's cells to help, there will be no stopping you.

Posted by: Missy at February 26, 2006 11:02 PM

HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!
and happy birthday tomorrow to you too Deb..
I'm guessing you watched the Project Runway marathon today too.. Santino is workin my nerves!!
that pantsuit he designed was hideous!!!!!
don't forget a nice chorus of "Kung fu fighting"! when you are gettin your cells.. ass kickin from the word go!
peace be with you..
from another Catholic raised hellion on wheels
~biscuit

Posted by: elizabeth at February 26, 2006 11:07 PM

That was a fantastic song Eclectic! You have a beautiful voice.
Tomorrow is a brand new day, and a brand new world for you.
The prayers will not stop, no way no how!

Posted by: Dawn at February 26, 2006 11:28 PM

My thoughts are with you!

Posted by: Brenda Donato at February 26, 2006 11:50 PM

wow, 70's a big birthday! ;) hope he enjoys it!

glad to hear you're in the home stretch! just keep thinking there's nowhere to go but toward BETTER DAYS. ;)

no fair. i want monkey pajamas.

Posted by: Sarcomical at February 27, 2006 12:00 AM

Happy Birthday Deb's Dad. And happy New Cell Day for you tomorrow. I'll be sending nothing but good vibes your way.

I think you don't feel lonely because you have so many out here in Blogville pulling for you. You ARE getting those vibes.

Hugs

Posted by: Von Krankipantzen at February 27, 2006 12:10 AM

Rooting for you on the other side of the pond,
Windsor, England

Posted by: Marcia at February 27, 2006 02:22 AM

Happy Birthday to you!

Today is the day...and many prayers are with you.

You can do this!

Posted by: Melissa at February 27, 2006 05:23 AM

Thinking of you on this day...

Posted by: Teri at February 27, 2006 05:42 AM

thinking of you, as always, deb!

xoxo

Posted by: sonsica at February 27, 2006 06:52 AM

Just checkin' in to say good morning. Thinking of you and keepin' up the prayers.

Posted by: Dawn at February 27, 2006 07:02 AM

The next thing you know we will see Eclectic on
Broadway. We have a something for you and it means
Happy Birthday.

Yom Holedet Sameach

Yom Holedet Sameach

Yom Holedet Sameach

Yom Holedet Sameach

This is "the birthday song" in your new language.
Of course we sing both versions.

DEBUMA AT THE RITZ (I almost typed at the Titz)
I will just leave that alone. The letter R and T
so close together here) and I have a helper on my
lap. (NOT GOOD) Nikki is trying to leave for work.
OY VEY. Get the visuals going, as the new cells
drip in, you are on your way to doing the
FREEDOM DANCE. Pretend we are all hugging you
today. We know "no kids" but since this is pretend
"kids allowed" we would take over the whole floor.
All these people who love you here.

THE QUEEN OF DELFT RULES THE WORLD.

Love SWLF

(Lisabeth the Typist)

Posted by: SWLF at February 27, 2006 07:08 AM

all the hope and love is being sent your way!

happy birthday to your dad!

xoxoxoxoxo

Posted by: clandestine at February 27, 2006 07:12 AM

I send my prayers that the white light of the Holy Spirit will surround you and give you protection, peace and health.

Posted by: Jaded at February 27, 2006 07:37 AM

Thinking of you... *fingers crossed*

Posted by: CircusKelli at February 27, 2006 07:44 AM

Peace, Love and Monkeys (to steal a line from my daughter). Mass quantities of thoughts and prayers are pouring forth from somewhere way up north (not toooo far from where Stephanie made her entrance). Will be keeping fingers crossed for you today - good luck!

Posted by: some dummy at February 27, 2006 08:16 AM

This keeps coming to mind whenever I think of you, so here you go, girl:

Trust in the Lord with all your heart
Lean not on your own understanding
In all your ways acknowledge Him
And He will make your paths straight.

Proverbs 3:5-6

Yep, here you go. May the path be smooth and straight. XOXOX

Posted by: Susie at February 27, 2006 08:44 AM

Best, most wonderful transfusion EVER!! At least it better be.... afterall, you ARE staying at the Titz -- Lisabeth said so!

Life more abundantly, that's my wish for you today. Hugs and prayers,
~Shari

Posted by: eclectic at February 27, 2006 09:03 AM

Hi Deb -

Sending you the usual well wishes and love :)

Bradley
The Egel Nest

Posted by: Bradley Egel at February 27, 2006 09:16 AM

Happy birthday to YOU and your dad. Here's to new beginnings and healing.

Posted by: ieatcrayonz at February 27, 2006 09:22 AM

Happy birthday to the father of the Queen of the Universe (all this time I thought Dick Cheney was your real father...a modern day Pricess Leah), and Happy New Birthday (02/27) to Deb....two birthdays, mega presents from now on.

Posted by: D at February 27, 2006 09:28 AM

Deb - I have the exactly same sock monkey design on a pair of slippers. But, while I DO own monkey jammies, they do not match my sock monkey slippers.

Sock-monkey wearers of the world, unite - Monkey Fest 2006 is upon us!

Monkeys are lucky and bestow luck, you know.

Posted by: Bucky Four-Eyes at February 27, 2006 09:37 AM

Happy #70 Birthday Dad! That's a big one.

Deb, I'm happy to hear you are feeling the prayers. I thought of you first thing this morning when I woke up because I know you need prayer right now and I believe in the power. My sister-in-law had breast cancer last summer. After they removed it, there was no cancer to be found in her body or in the mass that was removed. Sounds like answered prayer to me, thank you God! And I sure hope he is nowhere near as cranky as Simon.
((Hugs))
Kathy :-D


Posted by: dashababy at February 27, 2006 09:41 AM

I'm a little late to the well-wishing, I think. But I came over from Susie's to let you know I'm praying for you.

God bless you.

Posted by: LadyBug at February 27, 2006 09:55 AM

My son is at an age on the edge of leaving childhood. He has this really loud voice that you could never imagine coming out of his relatively skinny frame. He comes home with these silly chants that the kids at school make up and he sings them at the top of his lungs. He has one that makes me think of you:

Go Monkey, Monkey, Monkey! Go! Go!
Go Monkey, Monkey, Monkey! Go! Go!

If it's right after his shower, we get a little bit of a naked dancing floor show to go with it. (Sort of John Travolta style. You know, Pulp Fiction. Uma was in that too.)

I thought since I'm not that great at cheerleading, I'd enlist someone to do it for me. I'm going to ask my son to do the naked dancing monkey chant for you tonight.

And I am also praying for you, which is something a little different for me.

Posted by: karen at February 27, 2006 10:10 AM

LadyBug- never too late in well wishing and prayers!

Um, ya. I'm still here Deb. I think I may officially be a Deb stalker now. Stalking in a good way though. That has to count for something?
Please, no need to get a protection order ;-)

Posted by: Dawn at February 27, 2006 10:42 AM

Happy (belated) Birthday, Deb's dad!!

And Deb, you're in my thoughts all day today. You're kicking ass like Uma.

Posted by: kalki at February 27, 2006 10:51 AM

I'm saying prayers for you today Deb on your new birthday!
Wishing your dad a happy 70th too!

Keep kicking cancer's ass.

Susan

Posted by: trophywife at February 27, 2006 11:30 AM

I'm thinking of you and sending you lots of good thoughts, especially this morning. It looks like my dad kicked his cancer's ass in November and I know you can do the same.

And happy birthday to your dad!

Posted by: Kymberlie R. McGuire at February 27, 2006 11:47 AM

Happy Birthday to you and your wonderful Dad, Deb!! My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family. He truly is a great role model!!
Although we may not to physically be with you, remember, all of us out here are with you spiritually, which I think is more powerful! We got your back girl!!
Love the pjs
Cami

Posted by: Cami at February 27, 2006 11:52 AM

Let the stem cells drip, feel the energy . Happy 2nd Birthday to you and a Happy Belated birthday to your Dad. You are both gettting the best present any one could ask for: Your Dad, his son stood up to the plate and gave a huge gift to his sister and you his daughter is getting her new and healthy life back. How cool is that.
I am thinking of your whole family, this is a great day for all of you. I sure you guys will be parting for months to come.
peace and prayers
Nancy

Posted by: Nancy at February 27, 2006 12:20 PM

I am guessing the transfusion is going on as I type. As you know we are all about VISUALIZATION.
While I may joke about the concept. I believe in
the concept. I believe in taking your mind to
a "higher ground". I believe because you are
DEBUMA, QUEEN of the UNIVERSE, QUEEN OF DELFT,
you will join the ranks of the survivors. Because
nobody but nobody has more people praying, more love, more positive vibes going on today in this world.

Every person I work with knows my mantra on the power of positive thinking. Today they have all
joined me and are well aware this is DEBUMA day.

I am so very proud of you.

Love,
Nikki

Posted by: Nikki at February 27, 2006 12:32 PM

Yesterday, the sun was beaming through my kitchen window, and as I stood there waiting for my cup of coffee to heat up, I thought of you and with every ounce in my being hoped that God would send some sunshiney warmth your way. Now, I don't wanna take ALL the credit, but I'm glad you can feel those prayers ;)

Posted by: Maddie at February 27, 2006 12:59 PM

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DAD!!

Posted by: Kami at February 27, 2006 01:17 PM