I'm still here. heh.
Sis #1 dropped off more Wedding Soup and some new nephew drawings. She looked at my catheter bag (the one that goes into my bladder) and said it looked like a Big Gulp. All three liters of it. Major fluids going in and just as much going out. It's beyond uncomfortable, but I'm doing what I have to do to stop peeing blood. Don't you just love all this too much information.
I'm still not really eating solids, but have been forcing myself to eat as much as I can. The nutritionist came in today and said that I had been eating between 500 - 900 calories a day. It's the diet nobody wants.
I watched Maury for you all today, but it would have been worthless for me to take notes. Basically a bunch of "You not my baby daddy" DNA tests.
Then I took a marathon .nap session. I feel like Rumplestilskin. It's nearly 8:00 o'clock and I think I've been asleep at least 2-3 hours.
I'm ready for my bed. Since the cathater is still here, I'm thinkin that may be a while.
But I can do this. I have napped.
Your assignment for today is to reward yourself for a job well done. I walked a few laps the other day when I didn't feel like it, and Sis #1 gave me a blue ribbon (drawn on my board). Do something that you don't want to do, but is something that you must, then do something nice for yourself. Take a hot bath. Eat that perfect piece of chocolate. Buy yourself a spa treatment or massage. But only if you do something that you really don't want to do. No cheating here. There's no fun in cheating. But there is big fun in chocolate.
Posted by debutaunt at March 13, 2006 03:09 PMThinking of you, Deb, and sending moisturizing, clear peeing, solid food eating vibes. XOXOX
Posted by: Susie at March 13, 2006 08:07 PMI know those catheters get "really uncomfy",
but you know it's for the ultimate prize.
Your "ticket" home.
I laughed when I read your assignment. I know
that Sarah must be talking to you. She went
swimming, or jogged ever day. Her reward after
the exercise, was handfuls of candy.
Deb-you are "so doing this" with style, grace,
and a sense of humor". You are a blue winner.
Love,
Nikki
Hmmm. I say it is OK for you to use food as a reward as you have the ookiest physician supervised weightloss plan of all time.
However, for the rest of us mortals, it is more better for us to find positive, life affirming things as rewards.
Or at least shoe shopping. :)
Posted by: Sis#1 at March 13, 2006 08:16 PMYou rock. You can do this. You are doing it. May the blood stop comning for you honey. Hang in there. I keep picturing you with Zoe when all this is over. Think of her sitting on your lap, you giving her smootches...I can see it. You can DO THIS!
Posted by: Moogie at March 13, 2006 08:31 PMDeb, I talked with "Mr. K" today (and you probably know who that is and what that means" and later I ate a good chocolate bar (no sugar, either). Tomorrow, I get my massage, after a workout, I hope. I know what a catheter is about and they're not fun. Still thinking of you and praying for you. Take care. Love - "The Dad"
Posted by: The Dad at March 13, 2006 08:41 PMi made several scary phone calls (i'm phone phobic), and i'm rewarding myself with SuperNanny viewing. so glad to hear you're making the rounds and good luck with no blood in the pee.
You are SO kicking cancer's butt.
xo
I was having my 'treat' of nutella on a warm pancake as I was reading this. I did laundry. Yes, its a necessity, but the worst job I can think of doing. Mostly because I have to leave home to do it.
You sound like your feeling much better, and getting stronger and stronger.
Its very good that the amount going in is the amount comin' out!
love,
Dawn
Thank-You! Thank-You! You have justified my Thin Mints! Since I have done several things I did not want to do today, including laundry, a total of 5 breathing treatments to my 2 children, 1 trip to the doctor, and rectifying my vacuum cleaner's serious and life-threatening bowel impaction.
I'm keeping you in my prayers, that you may soon be able to eat solid food, and not pee blood, and most of all that your healing goes flawlessly, so that you can have your Zoe in your arms as soon as is possible.
You are strong. You are and inspiration. You are kicking this cancer's butt. You can do this.
God Bless.
Posted by: Jessica at March 13, 2006 10:08 PMThe other day my husband brought me home one of those monster-sized Cadbury Fruit and Nut bars. (I'd say this is one of my favorites, but that would be silly since I could say this about all chocolate.) When he came back into the room an hour or so later, the goofball asked if I had had some. Quite the contrary; I had eaten the whole thing.
Happy peeing, eating and napping.
Posted by: mrtl at March 13, 2006 11:23 PMOooooh, ooooh... an assignment!!! The Queen IS feeling better! Alright, I tackled my income tax return today and I really didn't want to, so I'm a very good Duchess and I've scheduled a hair appointment as my reward. And for Sarah, I also ate some M&Ms.
I'm visualizing that catheter being d/c'd, so I'm expecting that to happen any day now. I'm also visualizing you eating real food with abandon, so look forward to that, too! (I clearly have an enhanced view of my own Duchess powers...) Angels on your pillow tonight, Deb.
Posted by: eclectic at March 14, 2006 12:04 AMhey!
laps?!
amazing work -
I'm sure the napping is important, and the Maury too, and the big gulp.
Stay On Target!
Posted by: blackbird at March 14, 2006 05:13 AMThe Big Gulp-I can see it now, when I see people
get those drinks, the size of TX, I think hmmm
you will be living in the potty.
I know you have been missing in the worst way the
Yiddish Word of the Day. Maybe this will help
the pee-pee problem. The phrase is OY GEVALT-
which means "Oh how terrible". It's a good switch
from the OY VEY-which means "woe is me", but
it also sounds good.
Now the Maury folks when they find out who the
Daddy is, they would say OY GEVALT-when it't the
guy with no job, no teeth, no hair, and two brain
cells. But I am sure if you don't know who "the
Daddy is" you are no prize either.
BWAHAHAHAHAHAHAH-I have something sweet almost
every day. I think all the laundry I do warrants
a treat. My 4 kids think you should change clothes, 2-3 times a day. Sometimes I think
that laundry "breeds" in that laundry room.
Your assignment today is to keep kicking ass.
Walk a lap, try and "ess" a little more. And
call the producer of the Maury show, tell them
we don't care who the "Daddy is".
XOXOX
Shoshie
My family was supposed to be on the Maury Show yesterday. All 12 of us took the bus from Texas. Unfortunately we were involuntarily removed from the bus in northern Arkansas when my two sisters were caught stealing money from the driver during a refueling stop. If Maury doesn't send us more bus tickets, we may stay here. This Motel 6 is a little cramped, but we can get three extra towels. We also think one of my sisters could easily be elected Governor.
While I think I deserve chocolate, I don't think my sisters do. Deb, what do you think?
Posted by: D at March 14, 2006 09:03 AMThese comments are so GREAT! I see Shoshie and I are on the same page with laundry. It does breed, I even did a post on it a while back. It was part of a "why" post, but it breeds. I suggest disposable clothes. Wear em, toss em, its all good. OH! Even better- once you purchase clothes, you get a mailing bag with them, they get dirty, you send them back, they send you the same thing, only new!!
D's comment- OH MY GOODNESS! Love it! If your loyal subjects are loving them, i'm sure you are loving them too.
I have to admit, last night when the boys and I prayed, I was half asleep on the couch. They went up to bed themselves- which is something they NEVER do- they came to me and we prayed. They did they praying. After they prayed for God to watch over us and protect us as we sleep, they proceeded to pray for you. For God to be with you, help your body heal, and for the cancer to be gone. I am very thankful for children that have such compassion and love, and that they also keep you in their thoughts. You are so loved, by so many.
Love,
Dawn, Brennen, and Hunter
I don't want to go return some items I don't have a receipt for to Target. I really, really don't. While I'm there, however, I may check to see if they have the Rob Thomas CD I've been wanting. If that's not there, perhaps a Reese's Peanut Butter Cup or two. :)
Sending you lots of good vibes, Deb. You're kicking all forms of ass. Hang in there, kiddo.
Posted by: CircusKelli at March 14, 2006 11:07 AMthere is a package on the way to you (your sis) full of 'thank you for taking care of me nurses' fun.
and there is probably some free cat fur included in the tape i used to seal the package.
Posted by: sarah at March 14, 2006 12:25 PMI did something really difficult an hour ago.
I talked to your Yiddish Yoda Master (Shoshie).
She was talking a mile a minute, about some
project she is working on. I am going to reward
myself with some ice-cream covered with peanut
butter, and chocolate sauce. It's 11am here,
I will call this treat a late breakfast.
My family should go on the Maury show. We do know
who our Daddy was but we could cause a stir.
I hope your pee-pee house (as my daughter say's)
is getting better.
Love,
Lisabeth
Deb,
I ran into your site yesterday and read everythig you have posted and the comments posted by other people. I have to tell you that you a so brave. I know god will be by your side all the way. He will help you get better so that you can go home and be with zoe. I will keep you in my prayers.
Love
Loryss
So Deb - You inspired me
I did my 20 minute workout and then ordered the new Winsor Pilates set & more memory for Old Dell.
Keep On Fightin' - we're praying for you!
OK, I will have to think of a reward. I just cleaned out all the old cosmetics, creams, hair stuff etc in my bathroom. You know it has been a while when I found old breastpads and pumping paraphenalia in there. ACK. Three kitchen sacks full of junk.
Now I can find what I really like. And maybe that is just reward enough.
The closet, now, she scares me.
WOW! Deb you got some people doin some pretty ucky things that they dont wanna do. YOU GO GIRL!!
Love,
Dawn
Okay, I went out and rode that darned bicycle all around the neighborhood. Took me 30 minutes. First time I've been on that bike in a long time, so 30 minutes is good for first time. But, I was a dreading it. Made my hands tingle, and my legs were all a wobbly when I got off. I'm so outta shape! So, it's done. Thanks for giving me motivation to get out in the sunshine and kick my own a!
You know: everyone should notice that you gotta be feeling a whole heck of a lot better if you're giving out orders from the Castle! Glad to hear it!
Denise :)
Posted by: Denise at March 14, 2006 04:34 PM