March 20, 2006
Happy Sixth Birthday, Zoe My Love
Today is my lovely Zoe's sixth birthday. Six years I have been blessed to be the mother of this gorgeous, amazing, magical child. I don't think I could love her any more.
She is absolutely my reason for fighting this disease. She is truly my reason for looking forward to the rest of our lives together. So many days during this transplant have been agonizing, supremely painful, and gut wrenchingly awful. So many days I just wanted to sleep them all away and give up. Compared to the five rounds of chemo, this really has been so difficult. I really have wanted to give up - it's been so hard.
But then I look at her beautiful face. Her lovely beautiful smile. The love she has for me in here eyes. And the times we spend all snugged up. The laughter she has when I tickle her or when she tells me a funny joke. The love she has for life and me and our family. The joy I get when I see her play with her cousins (aka her brothers and sisters).
And I think there is no better reason for living. There is no better reason to have hope. There is no better reason to fight and kick this cancer's ass and live and live and love that child. To give her all my love. All that I have.
I miss her so incredibly. I miss her every minute of every day.
I know that we will celebrate soon. There will be days to celebrate. And today is her day, but there is going to be another day to have with her. Many many days.
And there is you too. And you know who you are. And I expect fully for you to be there too. And we are blessed.
Posted by debutaunt at March 20, 2006 09:08 AMHappy Birthday, Zoe!
You are a very special little girl.
Posted by: CircusKelli at March 20, 2006 11:18 AMTwo beautiful ladies. Happy birthday, Zoe!!!
Posted by: Sarcastic Journalist at March 20, 2006 11:19 AMHappy Birthday to your Zoe!
Thank you for fighting, thank you for writing. I cannot wait to celebrate your recovery.
Posted by: Trish at March 20, 2006 11:20 AMHappy Day, Zoe!
My children were the reason I fought. They were the reason I didn't run the car in the garage and just go to sleep when I knew how sick I was. They are the best reason. And I've gotten more years with them than I had imagined. And each day is worth it.
Posted by: The Scarlett at March 20, 2006 11:22 AMShe is a lucky little girl -
you are an extraordinary mom.
Tonight, I will drink a toast to you and Zoe and all the birthdays you have yet to celebrate with her.
She sounds amazing.
You need ice cream, don't you? Ice cream makes everything better. Except sex. Ice cream kinda ruins the mood when it plops onto those sensitive parts.
Posted by: Keith at March 20, 2006 11:35 AMA beautiful post and a beautiful picture.
I already wished Zoe a happy birthday, but it was too early. So happy birthday, Zoe (on the right day this time).
Posted by: karen at March 20, 2006 11:36 AMHappy Birthday Princess! Today will be a wonderful special day for her, and her mommy too!
Love for your child is a very powerful emotion that can help you overcome what life throws at you. Zoe is lucky to have you for a Mom and you are so lucky to have her for a reason to keep on fighting! Happy Birthday, Zoe!
Posted by: Jnet at March 20, 2006 12:16 PMHappy Birthday Zoe Girl! First day of spring, new hopes, and happiness to you both.
Posted by: Kassi at March 20, 2006 12:47 PMHappy Birthday Princess Zoe!!
You are one lucky little girl to have the Queen of the Universe as your mommy!!
Love to you both
Dawn
Posted by: lawbrat at March 20, 2006 12:57 PMNow that's what I'm talkin bout. Keep that positive attitude alive. You have so much to look forward to.
Happy 6th Birthday to the Lil Princess Zoe. May all your birthday wishes come true. On September 20th you can celebrate her 6 1/2 year birthday.
This is the first day of Spring. The Vernal Equinox. A time for fresh beginnings. A renewal of ourselves. I am sending fresh, new & positive waves toward you in Texas.
Aloha,
EV
happy birthday zoe and happy day-you-became-a-mom to you!!
you're lucky to have each other!
xoxo
Posted by: clandestine at March 20, 2006 01:11 PMHAPPY BIRTHDAY, ZOE!
Posted by: Kami at March 20, 2006 01:33 PMHappy Birthday Zoe!
I second Blackbird's toast -- to many years of happiness together!
Posted by: Kari at March 20, 2006 01:51 PMDEB,
Make sure you let zoe know that my kids and I wish her a Happy B-Day!!! I am so glad your hopes are up again. Don't give up always think of zoe. She is your sun, moon and star.
XOXO,
Loryss
Posted by: Loryss at March 20, 2006 02:22 PMJackson, I am sure, would want to add this comment as he recently rewatched Madagascar....
Happy Birthday to you,
You live in a zoo,
You look like a monkey,
And you smell like one tooooooo.
Remember when that was the high point of childhood rhymes? Right up there with:
Nixon, Nixon, he's our man, throw McGovern in the garbage can. (OK, this one just dated me).
Or there is the great green gobs, or the sittin in the tree one, or jingle bells, batman smells.
Who needs Shakespeare?
You were sounding better this morning on the phone. That's a good birthday present too. :)
Posted by: Sis#1 at March 20, 2006 02:23 PMHappy birthday, Zoe! March is an EXCELLENT month for a birthday....well, I've always enjoyed it.
Posted by: Patrick at March 20, 2006 02:41 PMOY VEY-You made the Yiddish Yoda Master cry.
Happy Birthday to Zoe the Princess of the Kingdom.
All the loyal subjects wish Princess Zoe a birthday
filled with CAKE, CANDY, LOVE, JOY, AND MORE LOVE.
She is a lucky girl to have such a wonderful MOM.
You are so kicking cancer the TEXAS WAY-which is
big, like your state, and with boots. and your
boa.
The Queen of the Universe can do it all.
WOO-HOO A birthday party at the castle.
Love,
Shoshie
Happy Birthday Zoe,
From Priya and Sunil.
PS Love to mommy too..
Posted by: sunil at March 20, 2006 03:13 PMHappy Birthday, Zoe!
Posted by: mrtl at March 20, 2006 03:15 PMZoe, do you see how important your job is? You are the biggest reason your mommy is getting well, and it's all because of how much she loves you. That's a big job, to hold all that love!! Yay for you!! And yay for being six, and for new toys and games, and cousins to play with! Hope your birthday is filled with fun and lots of love, and that your biggest wish comes true very soon. Happy Birthday, Zoe!
~Shari
Happy Birthday Zoe.
You are one lucky girl to have such a loving
Mother. A Mother who is fighting the fight for
her daughter. My birthday wish for Zoe, a million
and one days with you Mother. A million and one
hugs, and kisses.
We love you Queen.
Love,
Nikki
happy happy birthday to the gorgeous princess zoe and her momma.
Posted by: moxiemomma at March 20, 2006 08:09 PM