The Last Goodbye by Jeff Buckley
This is our last goodbye
I hate to feel the love between us die.
But it's over
Just hear this and then I'll go:
You gave me more to live for,
More than you'll ever know.
Well, this is our last embrace,
Must I dream and always see your face?
Why can't we overcome this wall?
Baby, maybe it's just because I didn't know you at all.
Kiss me, please kiss me
But kiss me out of desire, babe, and not consolation
Oh, you know it makes me so angry 'cause I know that in time
I'll only make you cry, this is our last goodbye.
Did you say "no, this can't happen to me"?
And did you rush to the phone to call?
Was a voice unkind in the back of your mind saying
"maybe... you didn't know him at all,
you didn't know him at all,
oh, you didn't know"?
Well, the bells out in the church tower chime
're burning clues into this heart of mine
Thinking so hard on her soft eyes, and the memories
Offer signs that it's over... it's over...over...
You have to stop regretting your life.
Posted by debutaunt at March 23, 2006 05:58 PMoh deb, hang in there sweetie. hugs and more hugs.
xo
deb, please be ok. i've read your site for a long time and never felt important enough to comment. but you are so sad right now... sometimes it seems like all of the bad stuff in the entire universe has been piled on top of you and only you and it takes so much damn strength to get through a minute, an hour, a day and where's the great reward? no one notices, there's no award ceremony or acknowledgement of the pain you endured in those minutes, hours, days... you've just lived another day like everyone else. big deal. except people do notice when you, deb, get through another day, overcome another challenge that's been heaped on you, and we celebrate with you in our own internets kind of way.
please know you are loved by lots of people who would consider it an honor just to give you a real life, non cyber hug...
sorry if my post is lame.
es
I love Jeff Buckley's version of Hallelujah, and I love the words you have just posted here (I've never heard the song, but maybe I can go and find it now). I am sorry you are going through this. Broken hearts do mend, but you've got a lot more important mending to do. The person who broke your heart at this time is a ... (something unprintable).
Praying for Spring on Saturday. Or chickens. Or being sprung like a chicken. Whatever. ;-)
Posted by: Philosophical Karen at March 23, 2006 07:19 PMDear Deb,
I am so very sorry you are so sad. I am speaking
for myself and all of the sisters. You are a jewel.
You have an award winning personality, you have
the strenght of a million people, and the love
of many.
We all wish we could take your sadness, one small
piece and disperse it amongst us all. Sometimes
in life we are deal a bad hand of cards. But we
go back to the game table, and we trade them in
for a better set.
We know you have a winning hand.
We love you Deb.
Nikki and the "Sisters"
Your Yiddish Yoda Master told us she was going
to "give you Sam". :)
And maybe if I did not try and type so fast I would
not have so many errors in my note :(
Nikki
If by this lyric you are saying what I think you are saying, then I'm declaring open season on a particular primate of the male persuasion. However, in my mind it stacks up to just one more reason to be healthy for the next 90 years -- so you can look back at his lonely, pathetic life and flip a giant cancer-free bird in his general direction! Get through this for all the right reasons, and then enjoy the side benefit of knowing you proved stronger than anything he could dish out. You are intelligent, expressive, compassionate, witty, beautiful, loving, perservering and wise. His stupidity is most definitely NOT your fault.
Posted by: eclectic at March 23, 2006 08:06 PMDeb,
I wish I had words that would help, but I don't. I know what betrayal feels like and it hurts. I would take that hurt away if I could, but I can't. Please know that you are so worthy of love and respect. Concentrate on Saturday and your leaving the hospital.
Yo Queen.
Look for Sam in a big Fed-Ex box. He is well trained, not hard on the eyes. He knows Yiddish.
He is a great Papa, he is all yours for the cause.
See that's how much I love you. I will give you
Sam. He said OK, if it will make you smile again :)
He even makes beds-is that great or what?
Mwah
The Yiddish Yoda Master
Shoshie
hiya. i found your site today and spent about five hours at work reading your last few months. i fear that what i write won't actually mean anything and it may sound like all the other well wishers comments. My dad is a 9 year survivor of Hodgkins (lymphoma - so, similiar) and my Grandma (my Bubbie ) battled lymphoma for years as well. I've watched my family members go thru grueling chemo and radiation. You are SO EFF'ing amazing! Your spirit is incredible - your love for Zoe ...
I know you are going to win this battle against the leukemia. Hang in there. I also gathered that you are dealing with serious heart break right now - how unfair, how horrible for you feel right now, i am so sorry for you - but not the pity type - that isn't you. Your words are beautiful - keep your chin up. I'll keep reading - you keep breathing, one day at a time.
My thoughts are with you....
I sure hope you're feeling better than this sounds. :-(
Posted by: Squirl at March 23, 2006 08:56 PMThis is my poem to Deb:
her heart hurts so much
'cause her heart is so big.
when she loves, she loves all the way.
so don't betray
the girl.
you can try to sooth her
with your cool words,
but
you know that they're just cruel words
try to fool words
so sweet the girl
so foul the crime
you are slime
to have hurt
our girl
Debby you are the best! Kick broken heart's ass!
Oh Debu Deb...
Don't stay in this place to long.
If you feel that there will never be another, it's only because there aren't many worthy. But when you find worthy, they will overflow your void. So don't worry too much about the drought your heart has been left in.
(that almost sounds dirty, but it's not. Smile a happy smile, my queen )
Posted by: Maddie at March 24, 2006 12:21 AMI want to say to the couple of people who commented and hadent before:
Your comments are so wonderful! Everyone that comes here is important. No such thing as unimportant to our Queen!!
Posted by: Dawn at March 24, 2006 11:03 AM