April 03, 2006

Oh the Sleep

I slept all night. If I got up I don't remember. Mrs. Habersham didn't get up either.

What I also don't remember is taking off my pajamas, but I woke up half naked and well rested.

I might have to try this on purpose.

I also ate two huge bowls of Honey Nut Cheerios before bedtime. Totally my favorite cereal.

So today the scale said I gained like 3 pounds. I don't like that, but I'm mentally saying that it's muscle.

If Paris Hilton had cancer and lost all of her hair, what would she do? What would she wear on her head? I saw a really good wig today and was kind of wanting one, but gosh, it's 87 degrees here. That seems so hot. I'm so sad I spent so much of the cold weather in the hospital. I feel cheated.

Mom said I'm like the only bald woman. That all the other ones wear scarves and hats and stuff. I have just gotten past the point of caring I guess. My hair is not growing. I look like a chia pet still.

Is it me, or are Dairy Queen commercials like porn? I can't have that kind of ice cream, but all the Blizzards, man, I just want to bathe in them. Don't even ask me about taco bell. Or the fajita nachos at Chuys. That is my dream meal right now.

I can do this. But the food cravings are insane.


Today your assignment is to well... get naked. When I was in the hospital, you never are alone. You don't get naked often, and when you do, you are so tired that you can't appreciate it. Mom leaves me well enough alone that I can really appreciate it.

It's weird to me. The radiation tanned me. My neck, back, stomach and arms are so much tanner than I have ever been before. I'm peeling too, and my skin looks like weird leathery skin, so I catch myself just staring at me naked. My body is thinner and darker. Like it's not me.

So today, enjoy being naked. Put on lots of lotion. Look at yourself and appreciate what you've got. And if you are lucky, well then there might be someone else there to appreciate your nakedness as well.

Posted by debutaunt at April 3, 2006 05:52 PM
Comments

Fan-dammit-tastic!! There are few daily things as miraculous as a good night's sleep! Oh I'm happy for you! And you know me and ass-signments ... I'm gonna be buck-assed nekkid tonight in your honor, my Queen.
love,
The Duchess (or is that Duch-ass?)

Posted by: eclectic at April 3, 2006 06:19 PM

Hi Deb,
Have you tried hiphats? They supposedly are MUCH cooler than wigs are, and more comfortablem, yet give the illusion of hair. I've heard lots of people (granted all of them under the age of 15) say the that they love them. Just a suggestion, always rooting for you in Rochester, NY!.
http://www.hatswithhair.com/

Abigail

Posted by: abigail at April 3, 2006 06:22 PM

So you ate two bowls of cereal, slept all night, woke up half naked. Hey, life is looking up. I just told my husband we would run around naked later in your honor. That perked the old boy up! Not sure that is a good use of words, but what the heck, I am celebrating you and I am throwing away all inhibitions.

Posted by: Maria at April 3, 2006 06:33 PM

it took my cousin's hair at least two months before it started growing. now it's a curly mini afro... it was straight before! glad you got rest and were able to eat. got to go, i'm getting naked!

Posted by: miah at April 3, 2006 06:49 PM

I am so glad to see you are writing again. I have been reading your blog (through Kami's) since right before you went into the hospital. I have cried many tears with you. You are such an inspiration to me and I know that you will kick cancer! Also, you are so lucky to have Sarah's family on your side, what wonderful people, all of them.

Those damn Diary Queen commercials...I am also Type 1 diabetic and have been saying for 20 years that when I am "cured", one of the first things I will have is a Dairy Queen Blizzard.

I am glad that you have your appeite back and 3 pounds is a good sign, since you have lost so much weight. You need your strength back.

Take care and keep up the positive thoughts.

Posted by: Holly at April 3, 2006 07:02 PM

Bwahahahah. Waking up naked, what the heck?
OMG you are Sarah's clone, she had cereal every
night of her life.

You sounded a whole lot better today on the telephone. You even laughed at my dorky comments.

Oh and don't get me started on Paris Hilton. She
knows about three words. "OH THAT'S HOT.

Here's to Honey Nut Cherrios and sleeping 1/2
naked.

And don't you be fretting about any weight gain
you doofus. You need your strength so you can
walk around.

Big hugs.
Shoshie

Posted by: SWLF at April 3, 2006 07:15 PM

hey, i looked at those hats with hair and they are cute.

waking up half nekkid and not knowing how you did that? last time that happened to me was...um...sheesh! i'll have to work on that for you!

yay for sleep!!

Posted by: moxiemomma (aka she of too many loony, oh so very loony emails) at April 3, 2006 07:44 PM

three cheers for cheerios and sleep. and the half nakedness is the bonus. I'm glad your feeling better. Be proud of your baldness, you've earned the right to hold your head up high (but put on some sun screen).
For the peeling skin have you ever tried the Bath and Body works body butters with shea butter. my favorite is the warm vinilla sugar or the cucumber melon body butter or body cream. this is the first year/winter i haven't felt like my skin was crawling.
i think its the "shea butter". i am very fair (almost transparent) and this stuff is wonderful. I am hooked on the stuff (since a Chiristmas gift from my daughter).
I'm so glad you've gotten some sleep and you feel like eating. You've done IT.
peace and prayer
nancy

Posted by: Nancy at April 3, 2006 08:30 PM

I have a roommate, so that isnt quite possible (to be naked). But food and cravings are good. Eat eat eat!

Posted by: Fellow Eskimo at April 3, 2006 08:42 PM

This is all good. Honey Nut Cheerios? Sleep? Waking up unexpectedly naked? Good good good. Your naked head is beautiful, too.

Posted by: Susie at April 3, 2006 08:42 PM

I think mom is observing stuff that I don't see. Lots of bald chicks running around--especially if they look fabu like you do. You have a nice head. I have to say I don't notice your head as being bald when I am with you. You are just the Debu.

You are sounding more like yourself on the phone. That's nice. :)

Posted by: Sis#1 at April 3, 2006 08:49 PM

HA!
today?
I am in the hospital with Youngest!
they have a pretty good strawberry smoothie here but neither of us are gonna be naked...
I've seen you everywhere I look, and am glad you sound like you are healing.

Posted by: blackbird at April 3, 2006 09:04 PM

Alooooha,

Yummy Honey Nut O's. and a Good night sleep. Who needs Lunesta, or a Sleep Number bed when you got the Honey Nut Oh's?

I'd get down and naked right now cept the folks vacationing in the condos up the hill might focus down on the Haole lady instead of the whales out in the bay. Later I might stay naked a little longer then normal after my shower.

I'm glad to hear your getting a little bit of an appetite back. Hope the plumbing starts working better soon, too. Big Hugs for you oh grateful one.

Aloha,

Maui Cos.

Posted by: maui cos. at April 3, 2006 09:18 PM

You make me want some cereal.

Girl, I find 3 pounds all the time. This is a good thing for you!!

Posted by: Kami at April 3, 2006 09:32 PM

You know what you can do? You can have someone draw art on your head like Sarah had! I think, perhaps, it was Shoshie who did it but I remember telling my mom about it when she was in her second round of losing hair! I almost shaved my head just so I could have some! LOL

Posted by: Traci at April 3, 2006 10:23 PM

That's it - the name!The Naked Queens Revellers! Yippee! I just got a naked charchoal drawing of my fine (but not fit) body done for my husband - I hate my body but in charchoal it looks darn good! Thinking of you (but not naked-hee!) Yasmin in West Melbourne, Australia!!

Posted by: yasmin at April 3, 2006 10:28 PM

I have heard of half naked thursday but a monday. Thats a new twist.

Posted by: Paige at April 4, 2006 07:02 AM

I took you assignment to heart...my supervisor and someone from HR would like to speak to you. :-)

Glad to read you got a restful night's sleep.

Posted by: Patrick at April 4, 2006 07:26 AM

Yay for a full night of great sleep!

Hugs to you, Deb.

Posted by: CircusKelli at April 4, 2006 07:54 AM

Yay, you found my scale.

Posted by: Carol at April 4, 2006 08:09 AM

Sweetheart, 3 pounds is nothing if you've lost 40. This really is good news. I don't know if I can take your assignment today, but I'll cheer on all those who do! You are definitely on the road to recovery, I can just tell.

Posted by: Kay at April 4, 2006 09:11 AM

I wouldn't worry about putting on weight - it's always useful to have a bit of spare----

Posted by: marcia at April 4, 2006 09:32 AM

I put on lotion, ran around naked, the Rabbi next
door saw me. He is now in shock, and thanks you
for the assignment.

I read this entry again, and I laughed because
the SISTERS have always said "lets buy our own
DQ". Would that be glorious or what.

Tell your folks Happy Happy Happy 42 years of
marriage. And you let me know when you want
the visit :)

Hope the "trots" have stopped.

Love,
Shoshie

whose eyes still look horrible

Posted by: SWLF at April 4, 2006 09:35 AM

OY I forgot-bald is beautiful. I like the bald
look the best. Sarah never wore a wig, she did
ball caps, and yes I drew art on her head.

Shoshie

Posted by: SWLF at April 4, 2006 09:37 AM

Yippee for the sleep and the weight gain. I think its a great sign that your body is well on the road to recovery. The weight probably IS muscle from your walks! :-)
Though I am 50 lbs overweight I will get naked later (can't do it now - I'm at work and would surely scare my coworkers !) in your honor and will appreciate what I have and not dwell on the negative.
I hope you have an awesome day today!

Posted by: Lisa O at April 4, 2006 09:43 AM

Bald is good. Bald head art is even better! Get Shoshie to come paint on your head -- I'll watch her kids.

Posted by: eclectic at April 4, 2006 09:50 AM

Bald is beautiful! When I was younger (like university) I always wanted to be completely bald. Unfortunately I was in a co-op program and I had to go through job interviews every couple of months; so I just got my hair cut really short at the beginning of the term and let it grow in as the term progressed.

And I know what you mean about the Dairy Queen. Those ads should be banned! ;-)

Posted by: Philosophical Karen at April 4, 2006 12:00 PM

if you don't want to wear a wig/hat/scarf, don't. i think a lot of women do it for other people instead of themselves. and that's not the reason to do it. if you're comfortable being bald, be that way, don't put something on to make other people comfortable.

Posted by: sarah at April 4, 2006 12:18 PM

Now - don't go giving Mr. Motorcycle any ideas, he has plenty of his own. As for your choice or options in headwear Mr. Motorcycle was a big fan of the corvette baseball cap while he was sans hair (which by the way went from stick straight pre chemo to really wavy post chemo, how weird). What is odd though is now - years afterwards, he doesn't like baseball caps at all. So, if you decide to wear something (which you totally don't need to if its to make other people comfortable) my assvice would be to pick something you won't mind losing as a favorite accessory because I think it might lose its appeal when you're all good and have a crazy mane of hair.

Posted by: cursingmama at April 4, 2006 12:55 PM

don't even worry about the 3 lbs, because they are just water weight or somesuch. my nutritionist (yes, i have my own staff) will attest to this. and shoshie's right, you need it for walking.

glad you got some rest.

xo

Posted by: kristin at April 4, 2006 01:10 PM

If Shoshie does some head painting, we want pictures!!

I'm glad you slept well, that can make a world of difference.

I'm going to try to check on you earlier tomorrow, and again before I go to bed.

Exams start next Monday, so i'm a bit- crazy- now. Heh, like i'm not a bit on the crazy side always.

Posted by: lawbrat at April 4, 2006 04:56 PM

I took a naked nap today, so my assignment is complete. It was goooooooood. The awesome 800 thread count sheets definitely helped.

I'm dealing with test after test right now at school, but I miss you and *really* want to come and visit. Call me so we can set it up. :D

Posted by: Christine at April 5, 2006 12:02 AM

I am so happy that you are cancer free. You are one lovely lady.

Posted by: Dr. Ethel at April 5, 2006 06:53 PM