Moonface girl cooked up breakfast tacos this morning. With a side of Darvon. I think tomorrow I will make a fried peanut butter and jelly sandwich to go with my drugs.
My cankles are now three million times bigger.
My moonface is now nearly perfectly circular. I look like that whiney character on PBS - Callou (sp?) I feel like that whiney little kid. I have to say this look is worse than losing hair, eyebrows, eyelashes, vomiting, anything. I am so sad to look like this. I know that it is a temporary thing, but how temporary? I want it to go away NOW! I feel like an alien.
I can't raise my arm from the pain of the new catheter.
I'm 800 years old. And that's not in dog years.
I can do this. But someone needs to get these fluids out of me.
Your assignment today is to get ready for Spring. Some may celebrate Passover or Easter or just the Easter bunny. Mom is making some strawberry angel food cake thing for Sunday. I plan on taking a walk later tonight at dusk when it's not so sunny and hot. But Spring is a time for renewal. Take it as a challenge to renew something in your life. Make some Easter eggs. Buy some candy. Do something fun and crafty for Spring.
I may be one hurtin girl today, but gosh I'm glad to be alive to feel it.
That's the spirit! Pain is life. And pain is temporary, here. Hope it goes away sooner rather than later, so you can feel better. (I'm off to work in the garden now. Believe it or not, that's my fun Spring thing.)
Posted by: Philosophical Karen at April 13, 2006 10:50 AMI am not looking forward to the dreaded moonface and puffy ankles, legs, etc. But I'm not there yet.
Yesterday they took out my Life-port and put in a triple lumen Hickman. So both sides of my chest are sore. It will get better.
And you will, too, Deb.
laurel
Posted by: laurel at April 13, 2006 10:52 AM{{{{{Deb}}}}}
Here's to you babe. I most definitely do NOT have 27 kids hangin' over my shoulder however I think one cranky boss is almost equal eh?!!! I'm sorry the pain is with you today and grateful you really understand and know how amazing it is that you are here to feel it all. I think of you every day and send good vibes your way. Close your eyes, breathe in and feel it.
MWAH!
Posted by: Traci at April 13, 2006 11:14 AMCheck Martha Stewart's site for egg decorating ideas. She did these yesterday, wrapped in silk ties and boiled in water with vinegar. They were beautiful!
Posted by: mrtl at April 13, 2006 11:47 AMBeen catching up here. You are so amazing. I know you wouldn't have chosen a moonface; still, remember that the circle is the shape of perfection, of eternity; it is the shape that humans find the most alluring, the most enticing, the most desirable. Work with it ;) You can do this.
Posted by: Susie at April 13, 2006 12:38 PMLove you Deb. Hang in there. You won't be "moony" forever. :)
Posted by: CircusKelli at April 13, 2006 12:53 PMhang in there --
can you get a set of bunny ears?
Amen, sister. Cankles are better than nothin' right?
Posted by: Kami at April 13, 2006 02:42 PMOh Deb, I'm sorry for the cankles and the moonface. Appearance does affect one's mood. So, stop looking in the mirror and look at Zoe or her picture. She is a true reflection of everything beautiful and good about you.
Have a blessed Easter.
Posted by: Kris Herbst at April 13, 2006 03:22 PMOh Deb - so very sorry you are still hurting. I'm thinking of you and I hope that Easter is a GOOD day for you and Zoe.
Posted by: Lisa O at April 13, 2006 03:24 PMI love what Kris H. said!! I do hope the fluids clear out soon. Being puffy is so uncomfortable, but of course it's wonderful just that you're here to experience it. Here's to experiences that are a bit more wonderful in the near future. Love you Deb.
~Shari