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Amnesia

I watched Last Comic Standing last night.

"Why do men like women with raspy voices?"
"Maybe they are done yelling."

heh.

Yesterday was a full day at the hospital. Labs, chest x-ray, infusion, and a bone marrow biopsy and aspiration. It was um. totally freaking OUCHIE!!!! I took a painkiller before, but it still hurt pretty bad. That's the worst test they got. So I was all like... ow, ow, ow. And she's telling me to relax, and I was like, ok, I'm going to tell jokes instead. I'm such a weirdo - like I'm all addicted to finding these funny jokes. But I have to say, it did make it go faster. And we were laughing. So biopsy smiopsy. I'm going to have to get a joke book.

I hate that test. I get nervous about the results, but then I tell myself, well what the hell can you do about them. I'm in remission and my doc expects me to stay that way. So I'm not going to worry about it.

It is great to be home. Mom made pot roast and my Sis #3 sent banana bread with chocolate chips. She was right - totally addictive. We watched What Not to Wear and hung out. I have really enjoyed spending time with her. Mom is cool and funny.

[aside] I did see Supersize Me. I actually own the movie. The extras were great and it does make you never want to eat there. There are other fast food joints that we will eat once in a blue moon, but after I saw that, Zoe and I cut McD's out of our diet (except maybe to go to the playground to play). Besides, the food really isn't good. I was just sick of hospital food, and in need of some McGut. But man... it made my blood sugar over 400. FOUR hundred people. Can you say McDiabetes????

I have to go to the clinic again today. Now I'm back at seven days a week. But anything is better than being an inpatient and having to be stuck in the big house. Bad thing is that I Ihave to be there at 7:30am Sunday. Don't they know my hair is in the process of growing out and I need some beauty sleep?

I read Readers Digest yesterday at the clinic because I'm so tired of television. I read a story about a man who got viral encephalitis twenty years ago and now only remembers his wife. His memory lasts seven seconds and then he can't remember anything. Lots of people die from this. He basically came home with a bad headache and then later got a high fever. He had seizures. His brain swelled so much he turned much of it into mush. He cooked his brain. It scared me to read that. But at least I did not have seizures. At least they caught it in time. And I'm home. I did it.

I have to say I'm super OCD now. They tell you when you have your BM transplant that you can catch stuff easily and you are on so many anti virals, but now I'm kind of paranoid. I think I'm going to say a daily prayer first thing every morning that that's not the day I catch some germ.

I am not going to get to see Zoe this weekend because of the clinic appointments. But she did leave me a voicemail that was soooo cute. At the end she was like... "I love you, Mommy." I miss her so much, but Sis #2 has been keeping me updated with what's going on. I got to hear her little school concert over the phone, and she's sent me some pictures. "Look Mommy, no training wheels." She is going to go to her dad's soon in New York for like six weeks. Hopefully I will be much stronger when she gets back. I'm happy for her because she goes to day camp there and gets to swim all the time. But man, am I ever going to miss her!!!

Ok. Time for breakfast. It's great to be back.

I can do this. My hair is growing back (It looks like baby chick feathers) the same color as it was before - hooray for brunettes (cos I make an awful blonde)

Your assignment for today is to pick a sport or activity you have never done before. Before I got sick, I bought a cheap belly dancing DVD. It was soooooo dorky, but Zoe and I did it together. She thought it was funny. If you don't know how to swim, be brave and sign up for lessons. My Bro #2 and sis in law met at a dance class. They did the most amazing dance at their wedding. Take a spinning class (those are HARD but kickass). Or do yoga (I love it). A hard workout is pilates and really will tone up your muscles. I am so proud of Sis #1 because she rehired her personal trainer to learn different workouts. It's important to mix it up a bit so you don't get bored.

I know I just got out, and have been taking it a bit easy, but I can't wait to work out again. I know that some of you all fessed up to falling off the wagon, but that doesn't mean anything. Just get back on. It's not like your workout life is dead. It's a lifelong endeavor, and should be like breathing - not even a second thought.

Today is going to be a good day. I hope you all have one!

Posted by debutaunt at June 3, 2006 07:53 AM