I was married to an Italian from New York. I'm surprised that Zoe's first word wasn't the f*bomb. (first word was actually bird)
I'm missing Zoe, so I wanted to post a memory. Sometimes when I'm sad, I really like to think about Zoe as a baby. She was so danged cute that people would stop me in public like she was the Baby Jesus or something. I had several women want to hold her. That was kind of freaky. I told you all she's magical.
If you are sensitive to reading curse words, you may want to skip the extended entry.
Peace,
Debs
Zoe was probably about 2 and a half, close to three, when this happened. We were riding in my car coming home from a restaurant. Zoe was blowing into the straw and making bubbles with her Sprite.
"Zoe, if you keep doing that, I'm going to have to take your drink away."
Zoe. More bubbles. I turn around and snatch up the drink.
She doesn't cry or anything. She crosses her arms and gets the angriest look on her face. Saying nothing. She just sits there for like a minute or two and pouts. She looks like the devil child.
Then. I hear it. Barely spoken.
"Fucking."
I try really hard not to laugh. I'm trying to figure out what to do. Do I talk to her about bad words? Give her a warning?
I choose to ignore it. Then. She says it again. A little louder this time.
"Fucking."
Again. The ignore.
"Mommy, did you hear what I just said?" she yells.
We then had a discussion on bad words. I am really careful about what I say around her, so I know she didn't get that one from me.
I miss her.
Today I went shopping for clothes and shoes. Found - nada. I saw some cute sandals, but they had too high of a heel. I could just see myself doing the debu_shuffle and falling off my shoe or something. (mentally picture this. cos I can totally see myself doing that) They were white too, so by the time I'm no longer 800 years old, they will be white and after labor day.
I also tried on some clothes. Why didn't anyone tell me that hoochie is the new pink? Sleeveless, low cut, short-waisted. The clothes are all made for women with hu-mangous boobs I'm thinking. I put on a top and my entire left breast was hanging out. You could totally pull the front down. I'm not about to double sided tape up my tatas. And the empire waist. First they call me sir, next they would be asking me when I'm due. Those shirts make everyone pregnant. "Look at Debu's 'bump.' How far along are you?"
We aren't going to go there with the pants. I'm all weird sized now. If they fit in the waist, it looks like I took a big durff in my pants. If they fit in the bootie, then the waist is like hella tight. I might have to start wearing skirts. But all they have now are these prairie jane skirts. So not my look.
I went to Ross after the last store. Sensation overload. More hoochie shirts. I finally had to sit in the shoe department for about ten minutes.
But it was nice to get out of the house. Even if it was 120 degrees in the parking lot.
I found a transplant hospital in San Antonio. I think it is a really good center as it was recommended by my doctor and my insurance company. So much to do. At least I have about a month or so before I move. But the lady I talked to was really really nice. It was a good sign.
And yah. I'm working out again *sweet*
I can do this. Me and the bike. Sans hoochie clothes.
Your assignment for today is to go shopping. Buy yourself ONE new thing. Shoes, belt, earrings, clothing, whatever. Treat yourself to something new. Doesn't have to be expensive, just new (or at a resale shop - new to you). Have fun. Get a sitter and leave your kid(s) at home. No significant others either. Just go by yourself and enjoy thinking about what would look good on you. Take your time. You deserve it.
I bought myself something new today. A book. As I got on the train and started reading it I realized "hmm this sounds familiar..." yup. I had read it before. I love the story so I am reading it again which is kind of silly since I have a book list 100 books long.
Re: Your fashion observations...Prarie skirts are a ridiculous fashion statement especially the short ones - they would make Paris Hilton's ass look huge. Low waisted anything - yeah if you are 16....my pants - when thy fit everywhere else I get a big ole gab in the back - VErrrry attractive. As for shoes, ya know the ones with the wedge cork like heels. Yeah I bought a pair to wear with a skirt to TRY and be a bit fashionable and it has NOTHING to do with what you call the deb shuffle. I thwaked my ankle twice today at work in them.
Amen for LL Bean clothes and Born shoes! Cotton Rules a modest v-neck tee and some capris please!
Glad its all looking good for the move - even though I know it will be hard.
Posted by: Michelle at June 23, 2006 09:44 PMI twisted my ankle and fell on my ass last night, and I was wearing flats! So no heels for me for a while.
I'm so glad you gave us this assignment today. I didn't buy clothes, but I did buy a new lens for my camera. Woot!
Posted by: Sharkey at June 23, 2006 09:52 PMgood assignment, i was trying on my last (old) years shorts and they just don't fit. I weigh about the same but as I approach a new decade the parts are shifting. who knew that life was going to be so cruel.
i'm not going to fight it, i'm going to try to hide it with a new style, but. not the heels, hoochie shirt or prairie jane skirt.
i think i'll do LL Bean or Lands End, how boring, but comfortable
funny story about the Zoe and her 2 y/o F bombs.
Peace
Aloha Deb,
Ah she's got a little of da bad girl in her dat Zoe. She must take after her Poppa.
I too have a hard time when it comes to clothes and shoes. If the bust fits the rest is enormous. If the butt fits the legs are gigantic.
I recently broke down and bought a Roxy prarie skirt in brown. It goes to my ankles and with my beaded Lily slipper, "flip flops" no Birkies for dis girl, and a sleeveless shirt I must say I resemble some aged hippie chic. My other alternative is capris with a tunic. It's hopeless but now muu muu's are out of the question.
My 2 daughters who is quite the fashionistas told me I need to quit buying mom clothes but doggonit they are the only things that fit.
Maybe I can find a good set of workout clothes so I lose some of dis booty and don't have to buy anymore "Mom" clothes. Certainly don't want to look like someone's mom now do I?
Peace to you too chica,
EV
I had to throw in my 2 cents here. I am sitting out buying anything but the most basic clothes this season, which is a bummer because I'm getting fit so my current clothes are flapping around on me. But I just don't want to spend money so that I can look like a collison between a bad '80's music video and a two-bit prairie gypsy. I'm hoping for a "tailored" and "neat" backlash in 2007. Blessings and health!
Posted by: Monica the tiara chick at June 24, 2006 12:50 AMgreat assignment -
bought myself a pair of shorts, at Old Navy.
maybe you should try there?
tank tops
and I'm curvy and the shorts fit...
glad you went shopping!
Posted by: blackbird at June 24, 2006 01:40 AMAll I want is clothing that is reasonably stylish, no hoochie stuff, and that fits! (my 16-year old hates the hoochie stuff, but it is all over the stores.) And no heels over, say, 2 inches. Because I will fall off of them. At least if I check Zappos I may hit paydirt.
Laurel
Posted by: laurel at June 24, 2006 10:36 AMI did this yesterday! :) It was fun to go shopping alone, but I had to use the excuse of "bra shopping" to convince da hubby that I needed to take care of this lil jaunt by myself.
I did score two new bras, as well as a new pair of black capris and 2 tops! I hit some good sales too. The summer months are hard for retail, so they're cutting all their things down drastically while getting ready for the back-to-school rush.
Hope you're having a great day!
Posted by: Gracie at June 24, 2006 01:27 PMThe Zoe moments are the best. Followed by your
fashion tips. I hope you are feeling better and
are not frying in Houston.
Toto
Posted by: Toto at June 25, 2006 07:06 AMYes, you are doing this. Kickin' ass while you're doing it!
I did some shopping a couple of weeks ago. It was so much fun!
Hugs to you!
Posted by: Dawn at June 25, 2006 05:38 PMOkay, have to chime in on the "words from little one's mouths" story: My niece was about that same age (around 3ish I think) when she was in the car with her Mom (my sis#2) and dropped some thing from her car seat....she says "damnit!". My sister, being the instant disciplinarian says, "E, we don't say that!" So, E says, "Oh, sorry....G**-damnit" I think my sister almost crashed!
I did buy something today: I bought a pilates machine and new recline bicycle to go into my huge-mongous bathroom! While it's not clothes, if this plan works out, I'll be able to wear pretty much whatever I want! I'll be lovin' that! Oh---let me correct that statement: WHEN this plan works out--it's a done deal, I'm going to be an EVERY DAY exercise girl! I'm not wanting the diabetes and this is my way out!
I get sad when I think about you and SA but ... I'm creating a new image.....I'll have another friend to visit when I go there!
Also, I totally agreed with your summation the other day about the floods! I have to tell you that while I said a prayer and cried some tears for those 200 or so folks that wound up with water in their homes, I personally did a little jig because it wasn't me this time! Hip-hip horrah!
Missin' you, and I understand you and Zoe went to the movies with my family.....good movie, huh!
Oh, also, I wanted to tell you that I read in a magazine this week (Reader's Digest) that if you're low on magnesium, you'll crave salads. Honest, I'm not kidding! So, now you know why the green leafy stuff looks especially delish right now! I know you like them regularly, but this is especially the reason why right now!
Glad you're feelin' so mucho betters!
Denise :)
Posted by: Denise at June 25, 2006 09:12 PMLOVE the Zoe story! Our littlest sometimes will try words for effect just to see if anyone reacts, though he hasn't any idea what any of them mean -- it's hard not to laugh sometimes! My feet look pretty in my new Target sandals -- thanks!
Posted by: eclectic at June 25, 2006 10:30 PMI did lots of shopping on my vacation last week, so I've got this assignment covered. I hate being an awkward size for stuff, though.
Posted by: Philosophical Karen at June 26, 2006 09:01 AMI loved the Zoe story ! Last summer my regular sitter was sick one day so I had to use my back up sitter - a friend of my mothers. One the way home my (then) 21 month old daughter kept muttering "shit goddamn, shit goddamn". I just ignored her and did NOT use the back up sitter again!
I am trying hard to lose weight so I'm not gonna shop for clothes (I agree 100% about the hoochie gear!) but I think I'll splurge on some good wrinkle cream.
I hope you are having a wonderful Monday!
Hugs
My second daughter, when she was about 4 years old, was sitting on the kitchen floor eating a little picnic. She stopped chewing long enough to ask "Mommy, what's fuck mean?" I could barely answer her because I was laughing so hard! It caught me off guard totally! LOL
Posted by: Traci at June 26, 2006 11:13 AMI'm embarrassed to say that my 3 year old likes to call his 10 & 11 year old sisters..... dumbass.
One of them will take something from him and he will, matter of factly, call her a dumbass and move on.
We ignore it for the most part, just wondering where in the world he got it from, when about a week ago we are watching TV, "That 70's Show" and Red calls Eric a dumbass, at which time my boy says.... see mommy- he's a dumbass too.
The boy is killin' me..........
lol
Deb,
I've been reading your blog for awhile now and have never posted an entry. I felt compelled to today (probably cause I'm bored at work)! Anways, I think I'm drawn to you because of some similarities...I have two daughters (5 and 2) and I'm a breast cancer survivor. I was diagnosed a year and a half ago at the age of 31. Though I know what I endured (chemo, mastectomy) is nothing compared to the bone marrow transplant I have been nothing but inspired by you.
So...THANKS...and continue to kick but!!! You're sweet beautiful Zoe will be back in no time
Danielle
Posted by: Danielle at June 26, 2006 12:21 PMLOL! If anyone was sensitive to curse words, they would have stopped reading your blog a long, long time ago.
You swear more than a longshoreman who has stubbed his toe.
Posted by: Cursing_Police at June 27, 2006 09:05 AMShocking that so many kids curse today when their parents think that it is cute or decide to ignore it, thinking that it will stop eventually.
Wow, he said "dumbasss", isn't that great!
Hey, dear, our angel learned a new four-letter word today, and she even used it in the right context.
Argghh!
Posted by: Parental_Police at June 27, 2006 09:10 AM