Yeah. I dropped it. The f*bomb. I'm just so sick about this it's not funny.
An update on Paula.
I apologize in advance for not having much good news to report.
Paula is not doing well. The doctors are not expecting a recovery.
Paula has now drifted into a coma. She had several bad EEGs (a test that measures brain activity) and then stopped responding to any of the tests they use to evaluate brain stem activity. They did a very thorough MRI that shows continued swelling and some new areas of concern throughout her brain. Basically it appears that the length of this infection has caused damage to the brain stem, and little is getting through it.
On the good side, her body is in pretty good shape. The cancer battle appears to have gone very well, her body is producing gobs of good blood and her organs appear to be in great shape. They did reduce the amount of help the oxygen machine is providing and she is pretty much breathing on her own. Somehow her body's ability to tell the heart to beat and the lungs to breathe is getting through her brainstem. I don't understand, as many times as Paula has run around without thinking I believe she should be up dancing.
The doctors say that at this point after six weeks - it would be rare to see someone come out of a fight like this, and even more rare to come out without substantial and permanent damage. They say it could be months before they can rule out even a rare recovery so we are soldiering on. If her situation stabilizes then we might move to a long term rehab center.
We are not for sure what the future holds but with Paula I still like our odds. I stopped believing in numbers after I watched Paula beat so many things this last year that had a “bad prognosis.
Please keep up the prayers, they have gotten us through this last year and they will be what gets us through the next.
Randy
um. basically pray for a miracle. She's a fighter. An underdog, but a fighter.
She, Wanda and Nico are the last ones I know there. The rest have died.
Not only do you feel survivor's guilt, you feel sadness for the person you know and their family. I can't imagine what they are going through.
I can't type anymore.
I can do this. I'm sad. But I have Zoe and she scored 5 goals in practice.
Posted by debutaunt at October 3, 2006 06:09 PMI'm aorry, Deb. You know that I fucking hate it too. With all of my heart and soul.
You're in my thoughts tonight.
Posted by: amanda at October 3, 2006 07:40 PMHi Deb, i'm sorry your seeing the bad, the ugly but you have seen lots of good. Its like your living the Clint Eastwood movie, the good, the bad and the ugly.
hang in there
Good god. I don't know if it's because I'm older or what but I'm getting pretty damn sick and tired of people dying or fighting and then dying and I, too, FUCKING HATE CANCER!
I'm sorry your friend is going through this and I really don't know what else to say about it.
Peace.
Posted by: Traci at October 4, 2006 08:35 AMI'm sorry, hon. ((((HUGS))))
Posted by: Kami at October 4, 2006 10:00 AMDeb, I hate it,too. I lost my mother when she was 44 and I was 15...
Cancer is a thief. It steals more than people. It steals innocence, hope, love and strength and leaves worlds crumbling. In Proverbs, it says that when you catch a thief, you can command 7 times the damages in return. Every day, in my prayers, I call cancer a thief, and command it in the name of Jesus to release 7 women of breast cancer...I know God's word never returns to us once it is sent out of our mouths without accomplishing that for which HE sent it. At one point, you were one of those women. Let's agree in prayer, and claim Paula. There is power in agreeing in prayer. I hope you don't mind, but I would like to lead the prayer right here. It is the best way we can fight for her.
Dear Heavenly Father,
Thank you for Deb. Thank you for healing her, for restoring her physically, financially, emotionally, spiritually and mentally, even as we pray. Thank you that you have given her Zoe. Thank you for her sisters, her parents, and even MB. Thank you that you snatched her out of the jaws of satan's weapon, that thief, cancer! Thank you for and we ask that you bless and protect every hand that attended her and every doctor who ministered to her. Now, Father, we know your word says that if we catch a thief, we can command 7 times what he has stolen. Lord, in the name of Jesus, we speak to the spirit behind cancer, and we command you to release 7 women with cancer NOW in the name of Jesus! We command you to release Paula, now!
Father, you said in Matthew 18:18 that we could bind things in heaven and on earth, so we bind every rebellious cancer cell in these women that refuses to line up with your word that says "by HIS stripes you were healed." We bind it in heaven and on earth in their bodies, that these cells may not spread, may not be fed, may do nothing but whither and die. And Father, we unleash (loose) the angels of heaven to intercede in this matter. We loose the healing power of the Word of God to spread through these seven bodies, including Paula, and We receive your promise now for them. Father, cause every infection to dry up now according to your word in 3 John 2, which says, "Beloved, I wish above all things that you would prosper, and be in good health, even as your soul prospers." Prosper their souls, too, Lord.
Father, you said you watch over your word to perform it. You said all your promises are yes and it is done. You said when two or three of us agree on touching anything, in your name, it will be done that the Father may be glorified by the Son. We agree in Jesus' name, and we thank you and praise you. In Jesus' name we pray,
Amen.
Deb,
I am so very sorry for Paula and her family. We will all pray for her, and her family.
Deb, you must do this. For all the Paula's, and the people that love you-at this point close to
a million. Because you know you have that million
dollars you are raising.
Cancer is a war, and we will win this war, if
we all come together. Vote for those who support
cancer and medical research, funding for cancer
centers. Together we can be a strong voice.
You can do this Deb, I know you are sad, we are
all sad. But you have the next Mia Hamm in Zoe.
GO ZOE
Posted by: Toto at October 4, 2006 11:22 AMI feel your pain and fear, hang in there, we love you.
Zoe rocks!
Posted by: CRebecca at October 4, 2006 11:52 AMOh Deb,
WE really need to focus all positive thoughts to your friend Paula and her family. They need a miracle and everyone needs to remain positve about her recovery.
The F bomb is really ok to drop. It hurts nobody and if they are offended I suggest they look up the origination of the phrase. It is not at all sexual.....S'there.
Zoe. You keep on kickin girl, and don't forget your water, orange smiles and granola bars.
Aloha,
EV
oh deb, I'm so sorry -
sorry for paula and her family, sorry that you have to do this, sorry it's so hard...
I'll remember all of you today.
I hope you have a good weekend. Remember these
internets love you.
Who knows why some flowers are picked and others are not?
While you really don't want the kids to pull out your flowers,
Deadheading pansies actually makes them blossom more.
There was white fungus on one of my bushes,
So I had to trim out the branches to air it out.
My dad has yellow fungus on his toe nails.
No one wants to trim those.
Hang in there Cowgirl! You and Paula and associates are in our prayers. The Bible says somewhere and I almost quote, but can't because I'm a slacker Bible scholar, "The rain falls on the good and wicked alike." No one can say why things happen to one person and not to another. Life is very random. The test is how you deal with the randomness.
Deb,
I saw your site through Manolo, and I just wanted to send you words of support from LA....I think you are brave and strong.
Lots of healing thoughts and respect,
Allison