April 12, 2007

Brenda

She's dying.

I got a text message that said, "I've gone to a better place" yesterday around 1 pm. Then I got another one right after that said, "Goodbye."

I burst into tears. Hey, wait. I'm not ready for this. I have a package in my car that we were going to send to her. I was just working on more things to put in there. I wanted to go visit her because she lives near my beloved Aunt Ikey. I needed to meet her. It's too soon. This can't be happening. She is my secret sister. She is my solid.

I checked out her blog, and it's true. Her lungs have given up. She posted an amazing post. I have no idea where she draws her strength. I don't have an update today, but a friend said she was in good spirits and surrounded by her family and a favorite nurse. They told her a day or two. I don't even want to think about it anymore.

Brenda, I love you. I wish you peace. I will see you running and smiling in my dreams. You will always be my purpose.

I can't write anymore. The words just hurt to see.

I can do this. It's just not a choice.

Posted by debutaunt at April 12, 2007 08:19 PM
Comments

My Dear New Friend

Need a sister in Cancer and Bone Marrow? Here I am.

I grieve too - this is so much - yet, she will no longer suffer so I am also at peace.

I will be your sister now.

Lori

Posted by: Lori at April 13, 2007 07:06 PM

I feel your pain as well. I dread getting the call that she is gone. But I comfort myself by knowing that she will be at peace.

We are all sisters who are fighting this damn cancer.

I HATE YOU CANCER!!!!

Paula

Posted by: Paula Smith at April 13, 2007 07:32 PM

I am so very sorry. I will pray for everyone. Big hugs for you.

Posted by: Claire at April 13, 2007 08:05 PM

I just read Brenda's note from yesterday right before I came here. I have only been checking in with her for the past few weeks but her story has touched my heart. I'm sorry Deb. I hate cancer. I. HATE. CANCER. Peace, Love & Tears...

Posted by: Traci at April 13, 2007 09:22 PM

Oh no! Oh Deb I am so sorry - I can only imagine your sadness. I feel like I almost know Brenda through you and that beautiful video you posted. I am praying praying praying for a safe peaceful journey for Brenda and also for peace for you. I have 1000% faith that YOU will continue to be healthy and thrive.
Great big hugs and many prayers . . .

Posted by: Lisa O at April 13, 2007 11:22 PM

i'm so sorry. xo

Posted by: islaygirl at April 14, 2007 01:36 AM

Hugs... Brenda remains in my thoughts and prayers..

You hold on too. Your support system is growing Debby. I can't be Brenda, but I will be here for you too.

We are united in the goal, and our girls are secret twins lol... If you want another "Sister" I am here!

You are loved, Z is loved. Keep Smiling and know that all the angels that have gone before, my Nick, all future angels, and Survivors... and those of us that loved a fighter... will still always be here for you, just sometimes in a different way.

Friends...
Sandra

Sandra

Posted by: Sandra at April 14, 2007 04:16 AM

Hugs

Posted by: mrtl at April 14, 2007 09:35 AM

I'm so sorry, Deb. Sending my love and prayers to you both.

Posted by: Angie at April 14, 2007 01:28 PM

I am so sorry. I will keep you and your friend in my prayers.

Posted by: Cindy at April 14, 2007 04:27 PM

I fucking hate cancer. Pardon my language.

Prayers are being said. Heh. Kinda funny to say after my sentence above.

Dammit.

Posted by: Jessica at April 14, 2007 04:46 PM

got the text about an hour or so ago that....she is now an angel.

Posted by: Claudia at April 14, 2007 09:05 PM