I'm feeling better.
Went to the ER Monday. I was pretty much in agony. Each time I get a headache that I think is the worst one I've ever had, I get one even worse than ever. Some day I swear my head will 'splode.
Catscan
Bloodwork
Lumbar Puncture
Exam
All pretty much came up with nada. Clean. No infections. I was glad to hear it. But frustrated because I felt so awful. I got a nice prescription for muscle relaxers and some megamotrin.
I just want my body back. Agony and pain one day and ok the next. The hell?
I'm sick of my meds. I felt like a freak in the ER showing them all of my meds. The doctor was like.. why are you on all of these.... still? Well, it all boils down to the graft vs. host in my stomach. If I skip my steroid, I feel sick and can't eat. So while I'm on steroids I have to be on immunosuppressants. And while I'm on those, I have to take a lot of "anti" drugs. Anti virals, anti fungals, anti pneumonia, anti anti drugs. And I take lots of vitamins - mega, calcium, vitamin D, magnesium, potassium. I have really expensive pee. Then I take a pill to protect my stomach from all the other pills. And some allergy stuff. And then there's that whole diabetes thing.
Basically I'm a walking pharmacy. Love em. Hate em.
But you know what? I'm still here! And almost 40!!
The docs couldn't believe I'm almost 40 because I don't look it. I'll try to have my sis take a good picture of me for my birthday. Maybe one where I don't have 2930439 chins and my hair kinda sorta looks cute for a change. It's very curly still when I wake up. If I don't really mess with it, I can make it kind of cute. It's very soft too. Not too many grays either. I think it will be pretty when it grows out more. GROW GROW GROW I say!
I can do this. I woke up today!
Your assignment today is to send someone a post card. Or a letter. Snail mail is fun. And it's nice to get something that isn't junk or a bill in the mail. Make someone's day with a little card. Or a quick helloooooo.
If you want to send me one, there's an address on this post. No bday presents allowed!!! (cept maybe starbucks cards to support my sixbucks crack habit) I will try to write back. I like to write letters and am long overdue on some of my correspondence, but I'll try.
I miss my Zoe, but I know she is having a super duper blast in NY. She now gets back on July 28th in Houston instead of Austin. I might have to have a belated bday party then. I can't wait to see her. I miss her snuggly little self.
Posted by debutaunt at July 11, 2007 09:50 AMYea-they did not find anything awful. I don't think
you have a clue as too how much of an inspiration you are to all of us each day.
Don't you just love giving the list of meds to the ER people? Seems we always have to repeat it a dozen times since they apparently don't always communicate with one another... that's always fun. NOT.
If your headache has diminished (or when it does), go look at this guy's performance. I figured it out a little earlier than I thought I would but it's cool to think he's having fun doing something he's good at and apparently making a living at it, too. http://www.youtube.com/comment_servlet?all_comments&v=OIJtKxdRQzY&fromurl=/watch%3Fv%3DOIJtKxdRQzY
I'm supposed to go postal and send off a package to another kiddo with ALL...oops, must be a freudian day... lol! As much as I love getting cool stuff in the mail, I hate going to mail junk which is also really stupid because I collect greeting cards with the idea that someone, somewhere will need a quick note and I'll have the perfect one to send. (Now I'm seeing why nothing gets done in my house... too many 'if, then, else loops'...lol!) Coffee sounds really good to me. ;)
I'm hoping you'll feel terrific more days in a row soon and then be able to lose count of the bad days and the meds as they dwindle to nothing.
Posted by: Bren/Cody'sMom at July 11, 2007 03:56 PMOk, here is my quick HELLO to you...sorry I haven't responded in so long, but I am still here, and you are in my thoughts constantly...this is a good blog...when you blogged "I can do this. I woke up today" I literally heard Brenda's voice saying that in my head....thank you for that...little things mean so much...and yes, you can do it, you are strong Woman (Ok, now I have Helen Reddy's voice in my head, not so good)....love you Deb.
Posted by: Cheryl at July 11, 2007 09:37 PMSHIT. We still haven't written to Miss Zoe. We suck.
I hate HAs.
40 is the new 20. :)
Posted by: Kami at July 12, 2007 12:30 PMI'm glad to hear they could not find anything on one hand but I know it must be frustrating to be in pain for 'no' reason.
I have been a daily visitor to your blog for years but I'm a lurker but I had to let you know you are still in my thoughts and I would love to see the photo of the new you. Please have your sister(s) or the Zoe(ster) take a new photo for all of your fans when your feeling better.
I still think of the 'sisters' often and all of the old bloggers. I hope all are well
take care and I hope you feel better soon, before Zoe returns.
Sorry to hear about all the pills/vitamins you're on everyday. I bet that must be very difficult at times. Are they going to run any more tests to find out what the headache was all about?
Posted by: Sarah at July 18, 2007 06:44 PM