Today was bizarre. I woke up to get Zoe ready for school. Dad has Monday's off, so he took her to school. I went right back to bed and then slept until 1pm. I ate a bowl of Grape Nuts and then passed out until 3pm.
I sent a message to my docs at MD Anderson. They told me to come in right away. If I'm really bad off, I will go to the emergency room, but most likely I will head to my doctor's office on Wednesday.
These new symptoms are totally similar to relapse symptoms of leukemia. I'm still trying not to freak out.
I can do this. My bird talker needs me.
Your assignment today - send prayers and good vibes my way (once again) please. Thankyouverymuch.
Deb,
You don't know me but I have been following your blog for over 2 years (lurker, but not a poster). Someone in Virginia is sending prayers and good vibes your way.
Take care in Houston.
Angie
Posted by: Angie at November 17, 2008 07:21 PMOh Deb. I am praying very hard that you have not had a relapse. Hopefully it's just some side effect from the meds you take. I know mine sure wreak havoc on me! Jeanie
Posted by: Jeanie at November 17, 2008 07:46 PMDeb, you don't know me either, I follow your blog but have never posted, and I'm sending you all the good vibes at my disposal. Keep fighting! You and the bird talker are frequently in my thoughts...
Posted by: Gulsah at November 17, 2008 07:56 PMOh, Deb...
Heartfelt prayers, hugs, good thoughts yada, yada yada...
You and the lovely bird talker are in my prayers daily...please keep us updated.
Much love to you both-
Deb
More hugs and prayers and good vibes coming your way from a long-time lurker/well-wisher!
Posted by: Amy at November 17, 2008 08:08 PMYou have all my prayers, and every good vibe I own. However you won't need them. You are a survivor, so a relapse is not possible.
Not in your world, or Uma's world. You are a warrior.
Posted by: claire at November 17, 2008 08:58 PMYou have every good vibe I can possibly send your way. (((Deb))) And a few hugs too.
Posted by: traci at November 17, 2008 09:03 PMYou have my prayers, too, and I'll keep praying until I hear you're feeling so fabulous you don't need them for healing!
Posted by: Bren/Cody'sMom at November 17, 2008 11:07 PMDeb,
You are in my prayers from down here in Mexico. Stay strong.
Patrick
Posted by: Patrick at November 18, 2008 11:23 AMBig hug to you, warrior. {{{{{{{{warm hug}}}}}}}
Posted by: rebecca at November 18, 2008 12:52 PMDeb,
You are in my prayers! I hope your feeling well soon.
Posted by: Yvonne at November 18, 2008 12:57 PMPositive vibes and prayers on their way.
You can fight this.
Love,
EV
Keep positive thoughts. Maybe this is just something the doctors feel they need to check into as a precaution.
I love you and am praying hard here in Minnesota.
Theresa
Posted by: Theresa at November 18, 2008 04:34 PMI'm a lurker, too. Just delurking to tell you I'm not great with prayers, but I am really praying hard for you, Deb.
Beth
Bazillions of hugs Deb! I check up on you often and I'm thinking of you.
Deb...I too am a loyal daily lurker. Prayers being sent from NYC! Hugs too!
Daria
Posted by: Daria at November 19, 2008 06:29 AMStill checking on you and sending lots of positive thoughts to you.
Posted by: claire at November 19, 2008 12:05 PMChecking in. Hugs to you honey.
Posted by: traci at November 19, 2008 02:47 PMYou hang in there! You are a fighter. Kick its ASS again. Sending you love and prayers!
Posted by: Paula at November 19, 2008 06:03 PMDear Friends and Family,
Deb doesn't have her computer with her at the hospital but she asked me to leave a message. There is no good way to say this so I will just say it: Deb has relapsed. The doctors don't have details yet but her blood work is not good.
She is at the hospital tonight getting platelets. I don't know of the details of her admission but I hope to hear from the doctor tonight.
She loves you interwebs and all the love and support you have given her over the years. She knows she can do this because she has done this before.
Please keep her in your thoughts and prayers and leave a message. She sounds in as good spirits as anyone can under the circumstances.
-Steph
Posted by: Sis #1 at November 19, 2008 07:39 PMPrayers being sent. Please keep us updated - you know the drill, send a sister to update if needed.
Remember UMA, you can do this!!!!!!!!!!
Deb, I haven't commented much recently, but have been keeping eyeballs on you. You can do this and will kick ass as you've done so far. Know that prayers and good vibes continue from so many people.
Posted by: Kim at November 19, 2008 08:01 PMFUCK.
If anyone can do this, you can.
You are a survivor. You can do this. And you WILL do this. Blessings on you and yours.
Posted by: Monica the tiara chick at November 19, 2008 10:09 PMI've been around for a looooooooooooooooong time, but don't post much. Oh Deb. You're always in my thoughts and I'm so so sorry you have to go through this again. I'll be holding you and your family close to my heart. xoxoxoxoxoxo
Posted by: clandestine at November 19, 2008 10:13 PMJeez... I just don't even know what to say. Keep going, girl. Keep fighting.
Posted by: Rachel Y. at November 19, 2008 10:25 PMDammit! Deb, you'll have my prayers and lots of good thoughts to help you face this crap-sandwich. I'm glad you got back to MDA and hipe they can give you the best help possible.
Steph, thank you for updating on Deb's situation. We love Deb, too, and I'm sure I can't even begin to imagine how much you all love her and are po'd that this nonsense continues. I will keep you all in my prayers as I'm sure this must be tough on your parents and sibs and kiddos, too.
Posted by: Bren/Cody'sMom at November 19, 2008 11:15 PMHipe? WTH were my fingers doing?
I hOpe MDA is taking good care of you and offers the VERY BEST in options and help for you, Deb.
Posted by: Bren/Cody'sMom at November 20, 2008 12:15 AMFight, Deb, fight.
YOU CAN DO THIS.
With love and every positive thought possible,
Skye x
You are in my thoughts and prayers. It is amazing you were able to write and let us know even when this is all happening.
Posted by: Carol at November 20, 2008 08:13 AMDeb-
Minou told us the news. I hate this for you, but I know you can beat it. I am sending you all the love and prayers hugs and good mojo and whatever else I can send, and I know everyone else in that wierd world that is the IRC is doing the same. Stay strong, lovely lady.
Posted by: Lisa P at November 20, 2008 08:18 AMOh Deb. I'm so sorry you're having to go through this crap. My family and I are keeping you in our thoughts and prayers. We love you up here!
-Jessica (in Chicago)
Posted by: Jessica at November 20, 2008 09:02 AMDear GOD--this can't be true. All of us have to kick up the prayers. Uma the warrior will be a survivor.
XO
Posted by: claire at November 20, 2008 09:20 AMI'm praying for you! Hang in there. You will beat this!!!
Posted by: Ali at November 20, 2008 10:42 AMI am sorry to hear this, but you can kick it's ass Deb! YOU CAN DO THIS! I will continue to pray for you.
Posted by: Yvonne at November 20, 2008 01:45 PMGlad to hear you have some strength. Keep digging for it, you've come so far! Good thoughts to you and your family.
Posted by: Dan Telfer at November 20, 2008 02:00 PMI just had a gut feeling. I'm sorry honey. My heart, thoughts, good vibes, crossed fingers and whatever other things I can do are with you and your bird talker and your family. Hugs.
Posted by: traci at November 20, 2008 02:06 PMWell, shit.
Deb, I am so sorry to hear this, and like everyone else I will step up the prayers, good vibes, and keep all my bits crossed. If there is anything that I can do for you, do not hesitate for one minute to ask.
Thanks, Steph, for giving us the news. Please update when you can.
Deb, as you have said so many times before, YOU CAN DO THIS!
Illinois Deb
Sis #!- I forgot to say thanks and prayers for everyone in your family.
Posted by: claire at November 20, 2008 02:44 PMDeb,
Beat this thing, lady. Thinking about you.
Kris (Floofy)
Posted by: Kris at November 20, 2008 03:25 PMHey Deb,
You don't know me. I work with your sis at FanHouse. I just wanted to remind you to keep your chin up and always believe in a better tomorrow.
In my thoughts and prayers,
John
I got the word about the relapse. You don't know me, but I know you. Good vibes headed your way. Smile.
Posted by: Random guy at November 20, 2008 04:32 PMDeb, on behalf of Stephanie's friends and fellow bloggers here at FanHouse, please know that our thoughts and prayers are with you during this difficult time. All the best during your (successful and speedy) recovery.
-Randy Kim
Posted by: Randy Kim at November 20, 2008 05:03 PMdeb, it looks like it's UMA time again. i haven't commented much in the past year, but i've been here, reading, all along. i'm staying here, and sending all my best vibes your way. take care. i hope you can get your hands on a computer soon--i know how much it has helped you to keep in touch with the internets.
xomox
Posted by: moxiemomma at November 20, 2008 06:10 PMWhen I commented I had not seen Sis #1s update.
FUCK - I was praying it was nothing. FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT. Sending all thoughts and prayers your way. You can do this. If anyone can, it is you.
Sending prayers, thoughts good vibes your way.
Sis #1 please keep us updated. A lot of us live in Texas and can help out.
Hi Deb,
I'm usually a lurker but I had to come on and tell you that you are in my thoughts and prayers. You can do this.
Stay Strong,
Gloria (Missy's mother)
Just wanted to offer up my support. I "work" with your sister at FanHouse, so the thoughts and prayers of my family are definitely with you. Stay tough, and stay positive!
Posted by: Matt Snyder at November 20, 2008 11:04 PMDeb -
Work with Steph at Fanhouse and just wanted to tell you to keep up the good fight. You've got a lot of people rooting for you.
Josh
Posted by: Josh Alper at November 21, 2008 08:35 AMI am so overwhelmed by hearing this. I think we need a giant ray-gun for cancer, all cancers, just to get those nasty creeps off this planet! Many, many prayers are going your way and please, please Debu sistas, please let me know what I can do to help you and her and Z. We've got our own battle going on again in our family, but we are always here to help you folks out as well. I speak for many in our family who would agree, that you all are part of our family. We love you all and only want the very best outcome. Love and strong bear hugs to all of you,
Denise
Deb and family -
am back in Houston - let me know what you need - am here and ready and willing to do whatever is needed. Will be in touch on the phone shortly. Hopefully you still have my numbers - Much love to all of you - and have sent healing love to Deb!
Posted by: Dione at November 21, 2008 11:22 AMOh Deb I can hardly stand to hear this!!!! I am just sick about it and praying to the Lord above to heal you. Please know that if even for a second you feel lonely there are SOOO many of us thinking of you and praying for you 24/7. We love you and know beyond a doubt that you WILL fight this !!!!
Hugs and Prayers
Posted by: Lisa O at November 21, 2008 01:30 PMI'm back, hoping for some kind of news. Hugs all around.
Posted by: traci at November 21, 2008 02:22 PMDeb... praying hard. Really, really hard.
Posted by: Sharon at November 21, 2008 02:26 PMLong time reader, checking in and reading the news. Sending tons of healing white light to you, Deb. All my prayers and thoughts and love.
Posted by: sally at November 21, 2008 02:53 PMHey Deb - longtime lurker coming out. Much love to you and your Zoe-kins I know this has to be hard for her too and you are probably very worried about how she is taking it.
I feel helpless to a measure but if its any consolation my heartfelt prayers are with you, zoe and the rest of your family.
Posted by: Priscilla at November 21, 2008 03:22 PMDeb,
You know I am in the middle of a big move right now and when it gets tough I say to myself. "Deb and the texas family are battling a big ass MF'r and if Deb can fight like Uma the very least I can do is buck up and keep at it. I will refrain from wining about my measly plight and use my energies to send positive vibes your way." 250 + boxes and each one has a prayer for you and yours. FIGHT Like a Warrior!
Love & Healing Prayers
EV
Deb -
I have followed your blog for a couple of years. I am so sorry. This is so unfair. I am praying for you and for the birdtalker and all of your family. We are all praying hard.
Beth
Posted by: beth at November 21, 2008 07:19 PMDeb -
I have followed your blog for a couple of years. I am so sorry. This is so unfair. I am praying for you and for the birdtalker and all of your family. We are all praying hard.
Beth
Posted by: beth at November 21, 2008 07:19 PM