Zoe's favorite singer: Allison Sattinger...
I went to Tavern in the Gruene last night to go see Jesse Dayton and Brennen Leigh. It was hosted by one of my favorites, Ray Wylie Hubbard. I was so psyched because I won tickets from KNBT. They were AWESOME!! It made me really want to move back to Austin. I miss my live music and really would love for Zoe to be able to see more of it (in a non-smoky environment!!). Jesse just put out a new CD and I listened to it last night and this morning. It is great. I love that kind of music. A mix of rockabilly, country, and Texasy. Apparently it's been labeled "turbo country."
I downloaded a few new CDs from iTunes yesterday too. Some old Elvis Costello, some Santana and this singer Sufjan Stevens (heard him from the great soundtrack from Showtime's Weeds).
Here is a trailer from Jesse D.
I can do this. I've got music on my mind.
Your assignment today is to recommend some new music for my wonderful iPod.
Sleeping. A lot lately.
While I'm very glad I got the clean biopsy results, I am still sore from the biopsy. My left hip bone hurts and I'm just so tired of going to the doctors only for them not to do anything. I'm sore all the way down my leg. I wish someone could invent a painkiller that doesn't make you loopy or sleepy.
Zoe's doing great. The weather is gorgeous and she's been playing a lot. It was so cool to see my family at Thanksgiving.
Ok. We're off to play. Z's got basketball practice tonight.
I can do this. It's almost Christmas!
....every day should be Thanksgiving.
I woke up early this morning. Way too early for a non-school day. And I thought I'd get up and write something really prophetic. Maybe do the typical "I'm Thankful for" post or tell you to go play touch football outside like the Kennedys. Ask what food you all will be serving or eating. But then, I just got a little sleepy and decided to instead simply wish you a warm and safe holiday today.
With love,
Debutaunt
I can do this. Because every day is Thanksgiving for me. No, not that I eat so much food that my belly hurts and I have to unzip my pants, but because I'm just damn glad to be here.
Your assignment today is to accept this debu_hug. Thank you all for just sticking around. I miss yer blog, Dallas K. Do one somewhere else on the sly so I can check in on you! And Sis #2, we will miss you big time today. I know you have company, but man... it won't be the same without you. And your see-food.
First day of basketball practice for Zoester. Her team decided that they want to be called the Red Hots! They were totally cute. And one of the player's grandfather volunteered to be the coach. He was so patient among the ruckus and the girls actually listened.
It was neat to be back in the gym. I played on and off all the way through college. I totally sucked, but I liked playing.
I hope Zoe enjoys playing. She said it was way more fun than soccer. I think it was because her little school friends are all on her team.
I've been doing pretty well. Lots of being outside and walking. I still am having GVH issues on and off. I might actually try to fix my hair and take some new pictures because I finally... after about FIVE years... got new glasses. It's awesome to be able to see so well. Zoe says they are cool. That's all I needed to hear.
Ok, apparently I am the best mom ever because I bought Zoe this toothbrush called ToothTunes and it plays some song by this High School Musical girl when you brush your teeth.
I can do this. I'm the "GREATEST MOM EVER!!' (well at least at this moment)
Your assignment today: Remember when you were little and you used to just play? Well that was what it was like today at the gym. Didn't most of you play some kind of sport when you were little? Swim team? Soccer? Track? Well the holidays are coming up, why don't you just go out and play?
I'd be doing cartwheels, but my hipbones are still too sore.
Clean biopsy report. Wowweewoowee!
Bone marrow biopsy results. Apparently they are in, but someone needs to phone me about them. I've been trying not to think about them much. Especially since I have had several dreams about relapse and dying. A few nights ago, I was up for about 2 hours at 4am thinking about how my will is not completed. There were a few minor changes, but we had never finalized it.
I think it was because Zoe was talking about what would happen to her if I died. I don't know why that came up, but she was under the impression that she would move to her fathers. Now I know that man loves her more than life itself, but if I die, Z will be living in Houston with my Sis #1. She will spend the summers with her dad like she does now, but Sis #1 would be her guardian. Also, this is really important to me because Sis #2 lives in Houston as well and Zoe has always been so close to my siblings - and especially close with her Houston cousins.
Her dad lives in a small town in upstate New York. It's a fun place for her to visit, and I like her dad's new wife, but I will never get the memory out of my head of all the young 13 and 14 year old moms walking on the main street pushing their baby carriages. My young stepdaughter's friends flirting with her dad. It didn't seem as if many of the children there go to college or even dream of going to college. I don't know, I just have much higher aspirations for Zoe. I want her to have every option open to her. I don't want her to grow up to be some kind of hoochie. Or to think that drugs and smoking aren't a big deal.
Anyway, I've been considering going to a counselor to figure out what is going on in my head. Perhaps I just should get back to some serious blogging here. Lately it's just been "hi/bye." I really need to write it out and then I bet I'd sleep like a baby.
Other than that, I've been feeling pretty good. A little sore from the mom/kid soccer scrimmage (the Moms won! Woo).
Ok. Off to get Zoe from school. Missing you internets.
I can do this. I'm almost 2 years in remission.
Your assignment today is to head over to Big Pink Cookie and say "hi" to the awesome Christine. She's fixin to have some surgery and could use a good word. She was such a great friend to me when I was sick, and her mom made me the most adorable blanket that has a crown and says, "Queen of the Universe." Get well Christine!!! We love you!
Juggling bills today. What to pay, what to pay.
I'm around - just watching way too much tv. Making my way through Heroes. Recovering from the biopsy (I had a way way rookie - ouch!)
Zoe is well. Cute as can be. Had to break the news to her that she couldn't have a puppy (her friend from school had a girl puppy she said Zoe could have). She cried and cried. It's so sad, but right now puppy is just not a good idea.
Contemplating about going to see Jesse Dayton play tonight.
Ok. Want to finish watching Heroes before I pick up the Z.
Will write like a normal deb soon - if there is such a thing.
I can do this. I have supadebpowers!
Off for now. Got a doctor appt with my transplant team in Houston at MD Anderson. I also found out yesterday that I'm getting a bone marrow biopsy. BUGGER! I hadn't mentally prepped for it. Oh well. It is what it is.
Zoe is well. I miss her. Will write later about trick-o-treatin'. Not much else going on except getting out of the house for fall. I love this weather! It's mah-velous.
Miss you internets!
Prayers go out to Robin G who is doing some special treatment at MDA today. She's got a gorgeous little one and a great family who love her and are trying to help her kick some cancer ass. I'm hoping that perhaps I might run into them today if I can.
I can do this. I have my cancer ass kicking t-shirt on today. Hi Dad. Please give Zoe a big hug for me!